sheryl-quahquah's diary :)

2011-06-14T05:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, that girl who seems so strong, who never lets what people say bother her, who smiles and laughs with her friends all the time, is really the girl who, deep down, is falling to pieces.

2011-03-10T02:30:00.000-08:00

HIHI SEE THE PHOTOS?

They are my JC friends(one from Tanglin previously)

THEY ARE MY PRETTY BABES( Soma, Vicky, Valesha and SHERYL aka ME!!)

I am the most awesome one :D

These photos are taken from my Macbook Pro...JEALOUS?! LOL

omg i am damn lame T.T

oh and i am still deciding where to go... POLY or remain at JC?

:(:(:(:(:(

But i just bought my DSLR for my cca then if leave like very waste money!!!!

My stupid GC(graphic calculator) also $150 leh fucking ex -_-

Then my uniform and notes all these plus together leh.... A BOMB!

But i scared i can't make it in JC.... HOW HOW HOW?!!!!!!

STESS!!! :(

But I LOVE MY FRENS @ JJC they are so nice i can't bear to part with them :(

I think i will stay?

AHHHHHH i dunno

I'm gonna go slap myself now BYE PEOPLE! :(

2011-03-03T06:18:00.001-08:00

To you, i am never good enough...
I hate myself.

2011-02-20T05:36:00.000-08:00

Hi Hi! :D
Its been long since I did this...
Okay so I officially HATE promises now cos of my MOM >:[
Okay so i shall say bye bye to my dearest............

:( I AM DAMN SAD

HATE IT she promised leh WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

And its like only $1,699 -_-

FYI i actually wanted 60D which is way more expensive...

OKAY so whatever I AM SO NOT TALKING TO HER

in short, i am ignoring her!

I am angry not because she didnt get me this(okay, partially it is)

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY, she broke her promise AGAIN

FUCK!

She said that is i go JC she will get me ANYTHING i want

so i went JC

IF NOT WHY THE HELL WOULD I GO???! -_-

People ALWAYS break their promises I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THAT!!!

That is why i don't promise people easily cos at least I WUN BREAK THEM!!!

IF you never thot of buying then dun even promise at first!!!

WHY PROMISE?!

COS YOU THOT I COULDNT ENTER A JC??? FUCK!

I AM SAD :(((((((((((

OHHHHHH i am also angry cos i can't change my BLOGSONG

I wanted to change my blogsong to BODY by Ja Rule but i can't find it in MIXPOD :(

FUCK MIXPOD!

LOL that is one of my favourite song now

BUT THE FAVOURITE OF FAVOURITES is now.... PERFECT TWO by AUBURN

I swear it is damn nice :D

Here is the Lyrics to Perfect Two:

Lyrics:
[Verse 1:]
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can can be the captain
I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that's I feel on our first date

You can be the hero
I can be your side kick
You can be the tear
That I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin
Or u can be the sun when it shines in the mornin

[B-Sec:]
Don't know if I could ever be
W/out u cause boy u complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie
Your th straw to my berry
Your the smoke to my high
And your the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you for u (for u)
U take th both of us of us (of us)
And were the perfect two

Were the perfect two
Were the perfect two
Baby me and you
Were the perfect two

[Verse 2:]
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as were together

[B-Sec:]
Don't know if I could ever be
W/out u cause boy u complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie
Your the straw to my berry
Your the smoke to my high
And your the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you for u (for u)
U take th both of us of us (of us)
And were the perfect two

Were the perfect two
Were the perfect two
Baby me and you
Were the perfect two

[Bridge:]
You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya

I love the way that u smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

[B-Sec 1/2:]
Cause your the apple to my pie
Your the straw to my berry
Your the smoke to my high
And your the one I wanna marry

[Hook:]
Cause your the one for me for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you for u (for u)
U take the both of us of us (of us)
And were the perfect two

It's damn meaningful and nice :)

I LOVE IT! :D

How nice if someone sings this to me :P

LOL shit i am being BHB again ARGHHH

LOL anyway ignore all my previous EMO POST

Cos i decide i will be EMO-NO-MORE after reading a series of secrets from SIX BILLION SECRETS

The past remains in the past, i dont wish to think about it further. :)

OHHH YEAH i finished my PI :D

But wait..... i havent done my english lit and GP AHHHHHHHHHHHHH :'(

STRESS lol

And and and i cant understand a single shit of HISTORY

I am gonna DIE!

Okay thats for school....

Oh ya i forgot i went for a movie with my classmates(Soma, Rachael, Shawn) last friday :D

127 hours is the movie

It wasnt that good :(

I suggest you dun waste money, just watch it online LOL

Itwas pretty bloody

It should be M18 NOT NC16

LOL

Okay thats it for today i guess hope tomorrow will be a better SCHOOL day and FYI i got 4 hours of break in school tomorrow AND WORST STILL i HAVE PE TMR!!!!! It should be call MILITARY TRAINING!!!

WOAH the PE is like............. RIGOUROUS i would say

LOL whatever hope i dun die tomorrow, good luck to me :)

Anyway i think the pic in my blog is very ugly but i lazy to change so pls pl pls ignore that pic >.<

Okay i talk too much today OOOPS :x

BYE BYE! :D

p.s : i needa go fix my polaroid soon

2011-01-23T06:16:00.000-08:00

I just cried.
Seriously, I dunno what for too maybe just another mood swing?
I hate my life(not saying it as a joke) I really hate it, it sucks
I am tired from always meeting the wrong person and found what people want me to do(which usually is not wat I wan)
I am tired, damn tired(physically and emotionally)
I just feel like sitting in a dark room in a corner and cry while no one come and bother me(which is what I did and am doing now)
I hope the world just STFU
Those who dun care just dun try to act like you care cos by acting you just disgust me
And those who really care I really appreciate it, thank you
And if someone(you know who you are) is seeing this, I just wan to tell you I am damn touched by what you send me that day after seeing my blog and I know you NOW not in a good mood too hope you can get better and sorry I can't do anything to help and can't say anything to comfort you cos I am not good at it.
I am damn daMn DAMN tired I am going to bathe now just reach home from work,
Afterthat I am probably going to sleep for DAMN LONG to make up for the few days which I haven and can't sleep well(seriously, I hope I dun wake up at all)
Okay so much for ranting today, bye bye

2011-01-19T07:53:00.000-08:00

Hi again :)
Okay the same thing I need to say FML
Oh these few days I have started to miss people that I thot I will never miss. Weird thou.
Work was okay but life... Is not.
I really really damn regret doing that that day. :(
But also not I wan one:(((
Why blame me and say me until like that? :(
Ya but indeed I am stupid la can't blame anyone but myselfD:
If that thing didn't happen I wouldn't need to worry so much now and it will make my lIfe SO MUCh easier
HAIZ seriously FML my life is so screwed up.
However I feel so relieved blurting everything out now
This is like my private space where I could blurt everything out cos I know no one will come and read excePt for my girlfriends/sisters who should already know wat is happening :)
I love them for always being there for me.
However, some things... I still need to depending on myself cos it's my life they can't walk my life for me so ya... Sad case for me :(
Okay shall stop here today bye bye wan an

2011-01-16T06:39:00.000-08:00

Many things have happened lately.
Things, bad things.
Within this short period of time, things changed drastically.
Maybe you are right, I am cheap/ I am a slut.
However, things can't be changed already.
So what's the point of telling me so...
Everyone keeps asking me if I’m okay
What am I suppose to tell them?
No, I’m not okay…and then what?
So I just smile and say I’m fine
Even though I’m really dying on the inside.

2011-01-03T07:07:00.000-08:00

Today, went out with my colleagues( sort of a last gathering maybe?)
Went with Jennis Seksuan Jahred Benedict Johnathan and Shihao to watch tourist.
Pooled after that.
Although not all of the crew members were there, we still had fun( I guess?)
Shopped for a while at bugis junction and street and homed after that
Saw Krisha and Amanda by chance today too.
Yesterday was the last day of the imm sales I think I will miss my crew member very much as it was also the last time working with that as they are all starting school soon. :(
I certainly will miss everyone of them and everything we have done together. The countdown, the times when I need a listening ear and most importantly the tines which we have fun( like everyday?)
It is so amazing how we could get along with each other so well by just spending a week with you guys
Will miss you all loads, hope that there will be an outing again soon.
Now about my life, still as messed up as ever I guess
Results will be out next monday, seriously dunno how to face it:(
The pressure is on for sure, results, life and of cos some issues that I dun feel like mentioning.
I felt like a bitch maybe even worse so I am now drowned in guilt.
Sorry that that idea have even crossed my mind before.
I hope this problem/ dilemma would really end soon.

2011-01-02T17:35:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I feel like a bitch and my friends allows/encourages me to be one unknowingly.
I dun blame them because it's the path I chose and ironically I still need to thank them for sorting out the differences for me.
However, I am now still in a mess.

2010-12-17T05:27:00.000-08:00

HI(again) :D
These are the few movies i watched recently :D

Hmmmm so what did i do today?
Wake up
Watch TV
Meet Seksuan
Dye hair ( 3 hours plus :( )
I dyed dark blonde btw ( however not so dark blonde to me )
Afterward went to eat then movie(Tron Legacy) then home :D
My day was just like that rather simple ya ;)
Went home early hoping mommy wun KP
Guess wat till now she not even home yet -.-
So i shall just be a good girl today :)
Tomorrow changing phone(hopefully nothing bad is going to happen)
y i say that?
cos always bad things happen when i change phone or even ATTEMPT too
Quarreling are unavoidable(especially when there is my sister ad mother around- in short,CHAOS!)
LOLS
Okay i haven nothing to say liao will upload more pics soon (when i free and feel like it)
BYEBYE! :D

2010-11-24T19:47:00.000-08:00

Hellos :D

Today morning i wanted to go exercise so woke up at 7.30 i think?

Aound there? or was it 8?

But.... i did not go cos no one go with me :(

Futhermore i got housework to do :(

i ironed 18 pieces of clothings today!

18 LEH!

Lol i got evidence will upload the pic if i free :P

Okay so wat i did ytd was to go job interview.

Before that was actually suppose to meet her at 1 at je or was it 1.30?

But in any case she was late again (as usual)

reached around 2 plus :@ lol just joking i wun be angry :D

cos... used to it liao

:DDDDDDDDDD

So iterviewed for job, did some stupid things, then went to watch movie

YUP it was this movie it was nice :D

After movie, homed reach around 10.30/40pm :(

LATE

Mommy KP.(as usual)

Watched tv till 2.30am she woke up and KP again-.-

So slept after the show finish

Now..... I feel like drinking KOI

Cos i heard somebody from my opposite hostel saying :(

Okay i think i better leave now to go meeet jennis or later i become another cheryl lee :P

Hope she dun see this

BYE!!!

Will continue later if i have time :D

Fergie taught me how to spell G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S

Kesha taught me how to spell D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R

Jason Derulo taught me how to spell S-O-L-O

Gwen Stefani taught me how to spell B-A-N-A-N-A-S

Sponge Bob taught me how to spell F-U-N(:

2010-11-23T06:37:00.000-08:00

Hihi :)

I will make my blog alive again:) (trying to)

Okay so here are some movies i watched recently...

And here is the show i just watched finish today fyi i just started it ytd :P

Its nice :D

I can read ppl now :P

Okay so what i did today?

I woke up and iron clothes -.- while watching the show

then went out around one plus in the afternoon

Went alloy condo to play :D

Do nothing.

Swam.

Talk.

KFC.

Home.

LOL this is short cos today is like that only nothing much.

But had fun :D

I am so bored now D:

Going to watch my videos again :P

Or maybe just sleep -.-

Okaay so bye bye for now

This is getting boring :(

I am like talking to myself again :'(

LOL.

Ciao ;)

I kissed a girl cause i thought it was my teenage dream but i didnt feel the fireworks because you kept gettin hot n cold so i decided that your just so gay and i dont like thinking of you.

2010-11-21T07:36:00.001-08:00

This place have been dead for some time :(

And i just did a revamp :D

But... it will soon be dead again LOL

2010-08-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

Hi my internet is fixed like at last................

Okay so here is what i did the past few days...

First was school's NDP.

Then i went to the actual NDP day.

Ms Shoba went too same sector but didnt saw her :(
It was nice impressed with Singapore's achievements :]

Following day went airport with mom and sis.

On 14/08 went to take study then take neo with Cheryl and Jennis

Sunday went to church as usual tuitioned then tuitioned again.

Monday which was ytd, studied alone at Tully's after tuition.
-No pics

Today, school as usual the o-level oral
-No pics-
I hope i didnt mess things up
The passage was average
Picture was rather tough
Conversation was rather manageble
The teacher laughed at me when i am having the convrsation that y i am scared
It made me feel silly lol
AND CARMEN YOU JEALOUS YOGA WISH ME GOOD LUCK IS IT?!!
Haha
Yup was excused from going focus as was not in the mood to like after o-level oral.
Went starbucks to study until Jennis came then went to bye tidbits to eat. Sat around, study awhile then homed.

Okay i gtg now or my om will start nagging bye.

It’s like half of me wants to be with him and the other half wants to get over him. I guess I’ll always have that something for him.

2010-08-10T02:01:00.000-07:00

Hi ppl this is my 100th post
I've read my diary starting from febuary
Omg it only made me so fucking sad :(
These few days have been not good, so not good
Have been crying for the past few days.(like mad)
I've been trying to control but i still burst out crying:(
Sorry yvonne hope it didnt scared you ytd.
Jennis told me something i didnt wan to know ytd and it worsen my mood :(
Things running through my head when she told me D:
Okay thats it for now its hard typing using this
Will continue when i get home(if i have the time)
Bye for now

I never thought that we would break up for the better
Should've never made the promises to each other
So many things I should've said that you didn't know
Coming in from a past with a heavy load

2010-07-25T06:00:00.000-07:00

Hellos people :D

I've been slacking lately :(

And i am scared :(

I PMS-ed today

Hope Jennis dun get offended :D

She will understand :D

Benn really"pissy" these few days or you can call it temperamental

Maybe menopause soon?

LOL jokin' la

Okay so went out with my family ytd :)

So guai rite now still got which teenager weekends will got out with family one?

ONLY SHERYL QUAH HUI MIN :D

HAHA ;)

Oh ya and i just uploaded the pics and found out i had dinner with family on thursday too look how guai i am :D

So here are the pics for thursday :

And thursday night doing "yoga":

And here are yesteday night's picture :

Yup so those are the pictures for these few days

Haha For the "yoga" pic mommy took it for me and she was freaked out LOL

you should really see her face EPIC!!!

Today went out with Jennis to study

But....... FAILED!

LOL

No mood la seriously thats y i say i will fail my "O"s this year :(:(:(:(:(

Ya and i am very PMS today as i said LOL

Hope she can bear with me and that ppl around me can all bear with me :D

Thanks guys :)

Ohhhhhhhh....................... and i found out that i am becoming to have that "motherly look"

Not because i am motherly or that sort but i look haggard loo like those woman who just finish giving birth :(

And i look SUPER FAT :(

Also just like those woman who just gave birth :(

So sad...............

Ya thats all i wan to say :(

Bye i am going to EMO one corner already :(((((

BUT... before i do that i am going to be very HYPER cos i am going out with CARMEN LIM tmr :D

Go watch movie

So long nvr go out with her already

I MISS THOSE TIMES GOING OUT WITH HER..................... :(

Anyway Jiejie going holiday liao my mom will PMS me :(

DIE D:

Ok so i shall go emo now liao :(:(:(:(:(

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

2010-07-20T03:54:00.000-07:00

Hi people i am back!

Ended school at 12.05pm today

No listening YAY!

Wet to watch inception with Krisha Abigail and Carine

Quite nice but some parts dun understand...

Picture above clearly shows what i have be doing these few days

Going out and doing "Yoga"

I am stressed, super stress going crazy again :(

Been thinking a lot lately

Things, lots of things.

Mostly sad :(

No choice i am an emo person D:

Got to know something recently that i didn't want to know...

Ya, therefore i am damn sad now :(

Bye bye i am going to do my hw for now to not think about it(for the time-being)

Life is unfair

God damn it!

Call me stupid i know i am :(

If you know my story you will know how stupid i am

Constantly believing me in stupid things time after time and leaving myself with scars all over :(

I hate it!

I know i can is just that i somehow dun wan but actually i wan deep down?

Do you get what i am talking about?

I know you don't and no one will :(

How i wish u get to know the whole story. but what's the point you will nvr understand

Furthermore, its all over...

2010-07-11T04:31:00.000-07:00

Okay so here are some of the things i did these few days while "mia-ing"

So you have seen my ezlink card pic and me in my ugly PJs but... Dun laugh la! LOL

The Free Hugs shirt is meant for my girlfriends :D

The last pic was my food the uncle drew a heart shape for me :)

So nice rite LOL but.... nvm!

Ok so didnt do much these few days study and stuff everyday until damn late la 5.15pm

Oh and went out with Jennis ytd to watch Despicable Me (in 3D)

Talking about this, THANKS TO JENNIS LEE JING TING!

Stupid &%$#$^%$ make me so ps :@

JENNIS LEE see this! and NEVER do that kind of stupid things again!!!

Went shopping and stuff bought quite a lot of things :D

OH and i wan to call my future baby girl(if i have one), AGNES :)

Cos the girl in the show is so damn cute LOL

Jennis, call yours EDITH! :@

Annoying!!!

I can;t manage my time well :(

Alot of things like not completed and studied yet :(

YEP i am scared :(((((((

About a lot of things in particular D:

I think thats about it will update again when i have the time. :)

Pinkie Promise :D

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

2010-06-26T07:30:00.000-07:00

Hellos :D
Shocked? Lol
I know very fat la but dun need give this kind of reaction rite :(
But nvm its ok cos my swim suit very conservative one :)

Okay so what i am going to say now will explain the existence on this pic :)
Went marketing with mommy in the morning today
Went home after wards and suddenly got the urge to suntan!
So... i wore my swimsuit to go suntan :) Actually its mommy's one
This is an antique at least got 18 years LOL
I know you all think i crazy rite wear this suntan :(
But i dun wan wear my bikini and show all of my fats so that explains...........
And so thats y got this pics lol
Okay so after suntanning and swimming, went to church at Novena, eat then went for evening mass at St. Teresa or is it St.Theresa???
Then met jie at Vivo City
Got my Tangy Zangy and my Ice Cream :DDDDD (this explains why i am so fat now :( )
I told mommy i will go suntan everyweek(although it didnt work out today after ard an hour of suntanning my colour still didnt change :@ )
Haha so she agreed to buy me the swimsuit i wan lol actually its a monokini(kindof like a bikini :P )
But i am only going to use it at my house swimming pool LOL
Here are the pics of it :D :

LOL of cos i wear wun be so nice la!
Fat mah :(
Its cheap :D
Got it at $39 :)
Mommy paid, these few days mommy has been in a good mood i sort of able to get all the things i want :D
Go out late come home late for 1 and a half hour also didnt scold lol
And she bought birdnest for me and my sister today!
Weird hor? lol but dun care :)
Haha so i think thats about it :)
I am so gonna lose some (actually should be a lot) weight and wear the monokini nicely AND GET MYSELF TANNED! :D
Thats all for now :)
Ciao ;)

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried.

2010-06-24T08:19:00.000-07:00

Hellossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
I am back after a long hiatus ( actually not really one :S )
A lot have happened since i MIA.
Mainly... irritating things :/
And of cos got fun too :D
Okay so i will just say about today :) went Equinox with Mommy and Jiejie again :D
Pics are all on Facebook
Lazy to upload here cos got 85pics :O
Ya so..... lazy
Seriously....... i dunno wat to say but i feeling damn angry now
DAMN and i mean it!

Oh ya once nice phrase to end this post cos no mood to write this post (if it wasn't for Jennis)

So here the phrase goes:
"Guys make good fuckers, however, not literally."
Haha get what it means?
Guys sucks thats all :)
Maybe i should turn les? LOL i am just joking
Please ignore me, BYE BYE ;)

The problem with most men is they're assholes. The problem with most women is they put up with those assholes.

2010-06-11T04:07:00.000-07:00

Hey, i am back =]

Tuesday
Went to with Jennis to Jurong Point.
Wanted to study actually... bu didnt and went to watch Mamaduke instead
Bused to Jurong East Library after that( for dunno wat but didnt cos was quit late liao so ya...
Went home.
Watched CSI(s).
Its damn nice :D

Wednesday
Went for blood test in the morning.
After that bused to sister's bf house
While on the bus, watched Zombieland.
Reached the house.
Did nothing at there for about an hour or so.
After that went for pool at bukit timah irc with sister her bf and her bf brother
Went there to meet Jennis, Cheryl, Seksuan, Sean, Qi Guang and Donald
So they played pool a while and i played a while.
Then later that played L4D for less than an hour -.-
Then bused to Westmall with Jennis, Cheryl, Donald and Qi Guang
Jennis went home first while the others(including me) slacked at coffee bean
Had coffee bean raspberry cheesecake for dinner =]
Then we talked about supernatural things(everywhere)
Cheryl was scared and dun dare to go home alone lol
It was funny
She asked Donald and Qi Guang to send her home.
End up, Donald send her home lol. ^^
So MRTed home with Qi Guang.
Reached home late but mommy didnt scold *phew*
Watched Glee(again) lol
COS ITS NICE
Then.... called it a day.

Thursday
Went to take back test results for the blood test.
Dun talk about the results lol
After that went Bugis with mommy to do facial
She forced me into doing it -.-
Sorry, i am not those ai mei kind.
Okay the later went to Jurong Point to meet Seksuan and Qiguang
But didnt watch movie(Karate Kid) cos the timing for that is sold out T.T
But its okay cos Cheryl is late and would not be able to make it on time either.
Okay so went shopping instead.
Qiguang found it awkward to shop with 2 girl LOL
So we settled down at Kopitiam and waited for Cheryl
Krisha came for a while and took Seksuan with her after that
So left me and Qi Guang waiting for Princess Cheryl.
So... i the meantime of waiting, went shopping with him (see it isnt that awkward for guys to shop with a girl - he was able to buy until clothes, and that proves it)
So shopped for quite a while until Cheryl came.
When she came, we went to eat Andersen's Ice Cream (MINT =D )
Then went to see shoes at Rubi Shoes a while.
Then thos 2 ppl found JP boring, so went to Vivo/Habourfront (by bus)
Gossiped a little in the bus :x
Reached Habourfront/Vivo and ate at Kopitiam.
Slacked there and went over to Candy Empire to get my sweets :D
Then... HOMED :]
Watched Drop Dead Diva (or was it Gorgeous? ) Watever
It was nice :D

Today
Woke up around 9 (damn late...for me)
Watched Hello Baby-SHINee (cos i was bored and Carmen asked me to watch a long time ago but didnt have the time = [, so watched it now =])
Was supposed to go out to study with Cheryl, Donald and Qiguang today but
the 2 guys cant make it so didnt.
So stayed at home and continue watching Hello Baby
I watched 9 full episodes today of that i was really bored and lazy so i did that
talked to Eugenie in the middle about something.
Cried.
Cried even more.
Stop.
Then continue watching Hello Baby. (Carmen see this LOL)
Then now, blogging and staying at home when i should be going tuition instead.
F**K care cos my head hurts.
And i am now going to watch TV
Ciao :]

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

2010-06-07T18:22:00.000-07:00

Picture i took while painting my nails :] (pls ignore my pajamas) LOL
Carmen says it looks like a C but actually its not lol...
Oh and my eye bags are pretty obvious in this pic =[

Pictures I took of my M&M(s) that day while waiting for Yvonne(while doing lit)
Nice hor :p

My nails :]
But the real colour nicer :[

Okay so these are some of the stupid things i did these few days (i did more than that)
I wasted my time at home yesterday
Was a little sick( only a little)
Tearing and running nose :[
So didnt went to tuition(part of it was also because i forgot)
Was suppose to meet Carmen this morning to exercise
But did not as her mom said the sky was dark ad probably going to rain...
But it didnt rain :@
LOL but nvm la next time :]
Going JP library later to study with Yvonne and Jennis
At the same time go there and shop shop (i also dunno shop wat actually)
Ok so i think that's about it maybe will blog more when i come home later.

I don't want to be alone, I want to be left alone.

2010-06-04T08:01:00.000-07:00

Everything have been so not fine these few days
Something is just missing
I've got this feeling in me these few days
Words cant express what the feeling is like
But its not a good feeling :[
I hate that feeling
I want it to go away
However... I've got a feeling it never will... D:
I need to find that place soon
Need it badly
Cos i am tired of doing everything within
Or i will just go crazy soon
This feeling is starting to hurt me( i dunno how but some-way)
I am starting to hate everything
Yep everything i see...
school,some people,some things and some other shit
Just please stop trying to irritate or annoy me these few days (I've had enough)
I seriously hate to put on a false front
But... only deception will make me "feel better"
I really wish to find that place soon
Maybe I've had an idea of where that place is already
And now the only thing that is left for me to do, is to go to that place...

I'm so not fine and so not happy
If this is what you wanna hear, you've got it
And I'm now venturing in search of that place which i longed to be.

2010-06-02T06:05:00.000-07:00

Random picture of the day

put this pic cos this is the latest pic i took
the pic looks weird though dunno y

anyway back to the main topic
blogged cos Carmen asked me to

okay so i am busy lately handling the blog-shop
thanks to all who purchased from freaks-overfashion.bs
You made my week better cos i got more money to spend thanks :]

Okay so i am not in a good mood these few days
And i mean it not in a good mood at all.
Consistent mood swings, breakdowns and emotional.
I've thought of committing suicide lately.
Dun laugh cos its true i think i told most of my things to Carmen apart from the suicide thing.
I dunno is it i PMS or what, but if it is also a bit to early.
Dunno what has gotten into me seriously i am easily annoyed or irritated these few days or weeks.
So please dun come talk nonsense to me if possible.
Wrote on my diary that day
I found out that i only write my diary when i am feeling sad :[
Cos i ended up feeling very emotional while writing or just start to tear.

Okay i think i shall not talk about all these useless things liao

So talk about today :]
Okay should put that face it should be this :@
Okay so i went to school today then went to jurong to take mrt to woodlands to meet a customer for swaps. i didt check the items ask she said they were in good condition. the went to Admirality to meet another customer sold the denim shorts :].Then trained vack to jurong and went home and found out the clothes before have a lot of defects. Contact the person and ask for swaps back (in the middle a lot of "arguments" so cut that whole part out ) then arrange to meet the person at Woodlands again to swap back my items so from home i bused to Jurong then trained t woodlands, swapped my items back, trained back to Jurong then home.

See i look like one idiot i know going up and down. -.-
Its partially my fault but mostly its hers!

Now i am here crapping cos i am bored and cos of Carmen and i haven finished two hw which i need to hand up tomorrow! DAMN! D: School holiday got school + homework :(

Okay i'm gonna find something to do now (not homework)
CIAO

I never felt true love until I was with you, and I never felt true sadness until you left me.
我愛他

2010-05-27T03:37:00.000-07:00

PICTURE OF THE DAY :D
I know i look retarded. but just bear with me :x

Hey-lo i am back okay so i read about the Bermuda Triangle just now :)
That always amaze me :)
Read about Cannibalism too also very interesting :)
Anyway i've got a book about cannibalism (all true stories)
The book is damn nice i've finished reading it you can lend it from me if you want :)
Anyway if you dunno about the Bermuda Triangle, go Google about it, confirm worth your time :)

Okay so talking about parents meeting
Got back my report book
Here are my grades :)
I know its not very good... but who cares :P

Ya so i de-proved 2 grades for my Amaths :(
And the comments, seriously DON'T REFLECT ON ME!
My mom says i am an introvert :(
OK maybe kind of... so talking to me can be boring at times and people will because of this think i am very proud :( BUT ACTUALLY, I AM NOT =]

Okay so my mom have been pressurizing me to go to ACJC
But i clearly know i can't make it and i don't want to go there :(
I want to go Ngee Ann Poly :(
But she keeps forcing me to go to that JC D:
That's why i always say that i am living my life for others, not myself :(
But just to make others happy, i don't mind suffering :]
But my future i can't even decide myself?
I don't know what else to say :[

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
-Anonymous

2010-05-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

Today was meet the parent session.
After-wards, home-ed
Updated blog shop a while and slack all the way through.
Now i am at a website reading jokes( you see how bored my life can be :( )
Okay, here's a "joke"

FACTS :
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he wants. A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't want.

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband. A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend. A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

To be happy with a man you must understand him a lot & love him a little. To be happy with a woman you must love her a lot & not try to understand her at all.

Married men live longer than single men, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

Any married man should forget his mistakes-there's no use in two people remembering the same thing.

Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed. Women somehow deteriorate during the night.

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't. A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change & she does.

A woman has the last word in any argument. Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

There are 2 times when a man doesn't understand a woman: before marriage & after.

END

To girls... this is sad but true :( (some only!!!)
okay i seriously feel like going out cos i am so bored but at the same time i am super lazy D:
okay let me die and rot
Bye bye D:

Will blog more later :) Lemme get some sleep first :P

2010-05-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

HAHA YEP this is my baby :)
My son :)
Why? Jealous i've got such a cute son?
Lol
I went home and bring him out to let Carmen and Jennis play with him
He don't like Jennis when Jennis wan go near him he will cry lol
See the last pic, thats evidence lol
I love him a lot cos he is so damn cute :)
LOL Carmen, i still remember him..... wait.....

Haha so cute rite :)
I think his name is called Aaron :)
Ask Carmen she should know since this is hers lol :P :x.............................
Anyway updated blogshop today :)
All instocks only la lol
freaks-overfashion.bs
CARMEN LIM!!! Do something about it!!! LOL

I tried.
Do you know?
Nope you don't.
Don't intend to let you know either.
:]

2010-05-23T02:03:00.000-07:00

Hihi :)
Went to town with Cheryl Jennis Donald and Qi Guang ytd :)

I like my legs in the last pic :)
Cos it looks long and white :P
Haha and look at Jennis shoes
She bought it specially for today -.-
cos i told her me and Cheryl wearing heels lol lame rite :X
Had a fun day ytd but those two keep complaining that their legs are hurting
And they say i am inhumane cos i told them my legs dun hurt when they ask -.-
Oh and i love the colour of the shirt i am wearing but the shirt is quite big :(
Look at the sleeves and you will understand it looks super "bulky" :(
Okay and i bought another design too let me find the pics :)
wait.............

HERE ARE THE PICS :)

which nicer?

i prefer pink la of cos lol

somemore the checkered one so short :(

i have a long body thats why

not forgetting i also have short legs :(((((((((((((((((((((

I maybe selling the checkered one i think although i love it too :(

Okay so just now did the usual things(for every sunday)

i know my life is a bore :(

Will maybe blog more later bye bye for now D:

Thinking that i could have the best of both worlds, but ended up with none...
Regretted, but... too late

I would just have to live with another regret again...

2010-05-20T06:41:00.000-07:00

This is my 85th post LOL!!!
I know very little la!
It has been long since i last blogged
I've got my reasons thats why (you all dun need to know, partially because of exams too)
Oh... talking about exams, i passed all my subjects for mid year :D
Of cos happy la i dun wan an underline on my report book again :(
Oh went for the Navy open house at Changi today
Was quite fun :)
But i remembered something rather embarrasing that happened there today :X
Haha if you wanna know, ask me :)
I MIGHT tell MIGHT only hor
CARMEN knows she finds it rather embarrasing too :(
Okay so...
Reached home at 8.30pm
We were suppose to reach school at 6.30pm but due to the queue reached school at 8pm :(
Haha was fun took pictures and stuff, crapped a lot too pictures were not taken using my phone however i've got one picture in my phone but no me inside :)

Haha its Benjamin and Asei !!!
Lame ppl :P

Oh and these few nights, i did lots of stupid things haha
Pictures below :

Haha okay so i was doing "yoga" and i looked hungover after doing that D:
Pls ignore my fat legs and fat body :( just put that pic up cos carmen said i was siao when she saw this photo :(
She said i was siao (maybe she didnt know i was so flexible ;) )
LOL!
There is still another picture i show her
she also said i siao cos maybe of my flexibility ?
HEY fat ppl can be flexible too okay!!!
When she said i siao , i always tell her : "hey , i was from chinese dance okay?!"
lol haha oh and then other picture will not be put up cos contains nudity :P haha lol not really la
but to me it is!!
Cos too much fats shown :(
Okay maybe i am gonna do some crazy stuff tonight and put it up some other time again :)

ANYWAY PLS DUN LAUGH WHEN YOU SEE MY PICS
ALTHOUGH IT IS A LITTLE TOO LATE, DUN LAUGH :(
PLS lol :)

HAHA so thats all for today ciao ;)

maybe i know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts
and we've got to find other ways
to make it alone
keep a straight face
and i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now i had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk

2010-05-10T03:58:00.000-07:00

HAHA TODAY WAS... fine :)
YAY cleared CHEM and EMATHS paper 2 :)
Went to eat with Amelia,Jennis,Krisha,Nabilah ad Yvonne after school at subway
I didnt eat... cos... i dun eat subway :)
Okay so i was having a conversation with carmen like a while ago :D
Damn funny :)

Conversation:
BLINGcarmen! says:
you seems like in a good mood haha
sherylq. says:
haha
why must be in bad mood meh ? LOL

Haha why do you all think i would be in a bad mood ? LOL
I am not la :)
Dun worry babes :D

Oh ya so to any of the clique members who see this, tell me if you going snooker this thursday kay :) Maybe play L4D or Bowling too :) Or basketball? ;)

OHH talking about Left For Dead, there is a movie for it and its coming out soon i think the trailer is so COOOLLLL go watch!!!! :)

Ok i am now super super lazy to study for amaths and english tomorrow :p
It felt like exams are over?
Ya FELT LIKE!
Oh and i am lazy to upload those pics tooo :( take damn long D:

Haha ok i think thats about it today?

"You are so hilarious!" *roll eyes* > Jennis, does this remind you of something? HAHA LOL :P

Haha and i just heard this from carmen, she said she closed the websites for the video but it continued playing!!! Haha damn funny!!! i think its haunting her LOL :P
hitmanbreakeroftheye is LOVED by SHERYL QUAH!!! :) (because he is s funny LOL)

Ditch that Bitch. Busted that Bastard.
by JennisSheryl :)

OMG okay i am going to pee now TTU(people)L (HAHA CARMEN I KNOW WAT IT MEANS NOWWWW!!!)

:D

If one day you feel like crying, call me.
I can't promise that i will make you laugh, but i can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid to call me.
I promise I won't ask you to stop, but I can run with you.
If one day you don't want to listen to anyone, call me.
I promise to be there for you, but also promise to remain quiet.
But one day if you call me and there is no answer, come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you.

2010-05-06T04:25:00.000-07:00

Yay! Bio and history over Liao :D
not as bad as I expected, but... will still fail :(
went wcpark with Jennis Yvonne and Carmen
haha yup I am on strike not gonna study today
so I went there to sleep lol cos I wake up at 4.30am today morning leh
to study omg!
Haha but didn't really sleep there either.
They so noisy!
Abused by Yvonne that idiot pinch me ;(
lol stupid pig :@
haha and I have just been promoted :D I think only one person will know way I talking about lol
so slack there till around 6 then went home

I guess everything will be fine now :)
back to normal life ;)

stones heavy like the love you've shown - this sentence is so nice
anyway it's from the lyrics of the song Pyramid :D

and Jennis told me PMS = Punish My Sheryl
LOL
Sorry for being lame, I am damn bored D:

oh ya pictures of wcpark on that day will be uploaded soon
hope jennis dun kill me for taking so long to update
anyway was "studying " with jennis qiguang and donald that day lol
haha really study la for 2 hours haha but end up camwhoring using my baby and my phone :D
to jennis : okay la pig I will upload soon la ! :@

lol ok I dunno wat to say Liao BYE!

2010-05-04T06:41:00.000-07:00

Had emaths paper 1 and social studies paper today :(
die damn difficult cannot finish in time = fail :(((((
tmr physics and a maths I think die also cos I haven study yet :P
lazy :X :(
physics is whole book leh :(
omg so much... This time really die liao :(
was forced to eat with jennis today again
I broke my curse :o
lol dun care la :x
the day after is history and bio two deadly subjects tgt omg *faint
shall see how I die :(
7 essays minimally to learn leh SEVEN and is minimally seriously just kill me now :(
omg i think I will die of studying history alone I haven even started memorizing one essay and now need 7
just kill me :o
shall watch me die when I get my results :)

2010-05-03T02:36:00.000-07:00

Stop throwing me with problems cos I've got enough of it.
I dun feel like going to school and take exams tmr :(
I am tired D:
if you are suffocating, I am dead.

2010-05-02T22:03:00.000-07:00

Bye bye baby.

2010-04-28T07:30:00.000-07:00

I am now lying on my bed in my bedroom with total darkness other than a candle that is lit up.
Haha feels like I writing compo!
Okay so exam officially starts ytd English oral omg did badly Chinese oral today but I dun need take cos I cleares my olevel Chinese :)
tmr science practical gonna fail:(
I haven studied yet ans now I am panicking
but I just dun feel like studying
I told mommy I will flung my mid years but will do well for my prelims that is just crap how can it be la.
So now I am damn scared l. Of wat? Everything .
Oh anyway this is for my irritating and childish good friend lol Terence:)
eh you must feel honoured hor I blog about you leh!
Haha I would like to say a big thank you to you as you let me know you will always be there for me when you don't need to.
Thank you for appreciating and caring for me.
Hey mister you must have confidence in yourself la
I know it ain't easy but you gotta try, you promised me :)
haha so dun say things that will make yourself feel dejected.
Thank you for loving me(as a friend) I appreciate it:)
you will always be my good good friend:D

haha see for you leh so long
oh anyway I miss my darling those time with my darling.=(
I know it ain't gonna be easy but I gotta try but will it work? We shall see...

2010-04-28T04:13:00.000-07:00

Pictures taken by BABY :)

Our favourite picture is the last one :)

Okay will maybe post later.

For now, GTG!!

2010-04-27T06:04:00.000-07:00

OMG
Today's a bad day
I failed my oral (not literally) but under the banding standard i failed :(
27/40 leh :(
a pass is 30/40 but ... :(
first step to failing all my subjects
haiz...

2010-04-26T05:18:00.000-07:00

Everything is normal today? ( I guess )
I should be studying now
but... I seriously no mood to study:(
I got oral tmr and i'm gonna fail :(
I gonna die
I dun wanna take o levels liao :(
I've got a lot of homework not yet complete
omg I know I have changed :(
I start to procrastinate my work how how how die :(
Eugenie talked to me somethings today
surprised that she will ask me those questions
but nvm dun wanna talk about it anyway I bought baby already:(
but I not happy leh why?
Nothing seems to be able to make me happy:(
oh anyway thanks to my girlfriends for being there for me ESP Carmen Jennis and Yvonne.
Most importantly my Eugenie :D
long time since i've talked to her but these few days we are attending tuition tgt again so I can tell her everything again:)
I think she holds most of my secrets:)
anyone dare to snatch her away from me I will tear you into pieces shred you up!
So I am now looking at the pile of hw stacked up on my table I feel like crying ;(
I am gonna fail:(
I am not joking, mind you!

If you really think that way, well, think again.

2010-04-25T06:14:00.000-07:00

You taught me never to trust anyone again.

2010-04-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

Today, went to mr sia lesson, tuitioned then went to sunset mass
After that went to Singapore Flyer with Mommy, Aunty Karen and Jie.
Took a lot of scenery pics but lazy to upload here cos can only upload 5 pics at once.
So if you wanna view my pics, view my facebook instead :)
Okay, so the Singapore Flyer was boring.
Nothing much.
Move damn slow...
But we were so lucky.
There was fireworks when we were on the flyer :D
LOL :)
Ate Jack's Place then homed.
Cam-whored with my sister :)
Here are the pics:

Okay i know my hair look super weird in this cos its "messed up".

LOL my first time doing this kinda face lol :S

Haha our "dao" face lol

Do i look very GL like that? :(

My face is bigger :(

Haha jie is so cute :D

This picture of jie very nice rite very cute lol :D

Acting Cute :P (not me la -.- )

"moustache"

Super Shag :(

Mommy like this pic lol :D

HAHA so ya thats all okay so from those picture you see, that is my new fringe.

I know it looks fugly :(

But cannot turn back time liao , so have to live with it.

AAnd i find my face very fat in all these pics :(

I AM GONNA JIAN FEI!!!

I jian 2kg liao :)

But i am gonna jian about 10kg more :DDD

(or maybe more)

GONNA FAST STARTING FROM TOMORROW!!!!! (means not going out with Jennis)

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine.

Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time.

Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.

I know, my heart will break, a new me will fill this space.

2010-04-23T08:10:00.000-07:00

I think I am not getting BABY anymore :(
cos I am super tight in cash now :(
and they tell me it's not really practical... So :(
haiz D:
omg so sad leh I wan cry liao :(((
but nvm la better than being broke :)
OMG mr toh is so funny today
almost died of laughing
but laughing too much is not good cos you will tend to feel sad later
on...
:(
today was a normal school day.
Skipped bio focus and went to wcpark with jennis and carmen.
they read something about 101 facts about guys and 60 facts about girls and one other thing which I can't remember.
Omg it's so true :(
so I am feeling so guilty now :(
they still purposely say until I so guilty :(
okay so sat around there till around 5 plus
oh and today's weather was damn scary I mean at west area.
It's like day and night together
Carmen got the pictures in her phone I think jennis has it to.
Okay so went wcplaza later
rained like mad never see before so scary :<
saw krisha nabilah and seksuan there too
Carmen went home first cos she needa go for dinner :(
crapped in coffeebean krisha joined me and jennis in crapping.
Lol damn funny krisha's song was on "walk me by" if I am not wrong
Yvonne and her candra came later
then left wcplaza around 7 to go to tuition with yvonne
so tuitioned and then home.
So that's my boring day
anyway I needa go Singapore flyer with mommy aunty Karen and jie tomorrow :(
I dun wan go leh wth :(
I got much more better things to do la :(
oh ya and I am damn super scared now :(
pls shoot me now
I can't take the pressure :( it's killing me leh :(
:'(
oh and wat make me more sad is that I just found out that ppl thinks I am a "bing san"
means "ice mountain" in terms not the brand of the water -.-
where will:(
omg damn sad I really got look so scary meh:(
jennis say the first time she saw me I look very guai lan so bad rite she :(
she still go tell another girl not to talk to me or I will beat them up :o
damn bad rite spoil my reputation :(
now you all know how good I am :(
I still remember that idiotic guy saying I like a bing san idiot sia :(((((
I think I need to go do some comestic surgery liao D:
and now even Carmen say I look very dao:(
and she say everybody says so :'(
my Abby darling say I look unattainable so nobody dare to talk to me :(
omg I think I go die better liao
also not I wan look like that lor :(
I repel ppl :( How pathetic can my life be:(
seriously, to people who dun know me, I am not how I look :(
if you think I am snobbish, I am not :(
cos I hate snobbish people myself too!
How you people won't judge a book by it's cover :(
nvm dun talk about this liao :)
thinking about next week, I am damn scared.
Basically, I am scared of everything ( okay I know I am such a loser )
omg I am damn scared how? :(
I am feeling so helpless now and I hate my mom she keeps reading my messages!
I effing hate her I really wan faster move out of my house soon but I can't find a place to stay:(
let me die
bye bye
D:

Feeling so helpless
There's nothing I can do about it but to break down
I really dun wan this to happen but I am left with no choice
this is the only thing I can do
I will never wan to go through this painful process again
I am really trying, in fact trying really hard.
But it doesn't seem to work(at all)
I still can't forget
and time did not lessen the pain, but made it feel worse.
Gawd, help me.

FMLTTFC!

2010-04-21T07:13:00.000-07:00

Haha actually I haven blog finish my mommy la keep ask me off the com tsk!
Lol?
And Carmen Lim Jia Wen faster reply me!!!
LOL
i hate it when people dun reply me
it's damn irritating!
at least just reply an okay or something rite tsk! Lol
ya so since Carmen Lim you know me so well you better know what to do hor!!!
I am damn bored I can't sleep... :(
and mommy is irritating me now, asking me to sleep
haiz my life so sian so sad lol
things dun always go the way I want it to be
NO
I should say
things NEVER go the way o want it to be
that make my life so so so so so so so ( infinity So (s) ) PATHETIC :(
oh Jennis talk to me about courage today was rather random buy I know wat she is hinting to me
haha I know it babe
lol okay my mom scoldin me Liao ;(((((
GTG
bye ppl :(

2010-04-21T06:17:00.001-07:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am gonna meet me BABY on friday (or maybe saturday or sunday ) :D

This is my BABY :D

Yup so i still decided to get the white one at last cos i saw the real pictures of the brown one and its fugly lol.

Okay enough of my baby, will post more about it when i get it. :) Oh ya i ordered it from a blogshop :)
Anyone insterested to buy you can ask me for the link.
All their items are instocks :)

Okay so what happened today?
Hmm..........
Actually nothing much
But i am feeling super guilyty D:
Cos i got SS and EMaths test tomorrow and i haven started studyin yet!!!
Yarh, no mood :(
So i am gonna fail :'(
And mommy's gonna skin me live :
Oh ya today the DM screamed at a group of us cos never bring his ws :(
LOL but heck care.
He screamed damn loud leh, super scary :O
I think today is a slack day cos i didnt learn anything or is it because i wasnt listening lol :P
Oh Mr Tie checked my work today he ask me why never do i told him
" I really realy didnt know need to do " ad gave this face :O
Of cos i said in chinese la lol
He really believed me lol
Then he told me
" KE HUI MIN MING TIAN NI BU ZUO, YI TI JIU FA NI YI KUAI QIAN."
haha means if i dont do one question he is gonna fine me one dollar lol
Lol damn funny when he said thatcHAHA :D
Dunno i find all teachers very funny when they SCOLD lol cos its like... JUST FUNNY!
Including the DM when he screamed.
I LAUGHED LOL
HE SAW :O
MY FACE WENT :I
haha he didnt say anything, luckily or i will be dead.
Anyway i am dead liao, so wats the diff :O
Yvonne is dying, Amelia is in the Emergency state of dying, while i am already DEAD :(
Okay so after focus went to meet Jennis.
Went to pei her eat.
Go WestCoastPlaza Popular buy pen then homed.
Such a boring day rite...................... D:

Okay so i went home, talked to Carmen she told me something very ironic.
Lol damn funny.
But she say not to post it here so i wont :)
Haha talked to Zhimin on fb. HAHA she is so super random lol.

Okay so what am i gunna do now?
Hmmmm dunno die i am damn sad.

And these few days my heart very pain. :(
No i mean literally it hurts.
Am i going to die soon :O
LOL
I think even if i die no one will care lor. :(

And i am going to start to write in my diary today.
Wrote in my diary about today le :)
Of cos i wrote more things there la and its more personal.
Then wat let you all know all my secrets meh :x
LOL jokin la :P

HAHA okay
CIAO
Let me die bah :(

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?

2010-04-20T00:23:00.000-07:00

FUJIFILM Instax Mini 7s (Helloy Kitty Version in While) limited edition!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

SEE THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I WANT IT I WANT IT!!! :((((((((((((((((((((((

PLEASE SOMEONE!!! BUY FOR ME :(((

This is the CHIO-est POLAROID I HAVE EVER SEEN SO FAR!!!

Oh wait got brown one also, but i can put the picture in :(

http://www.flickr.com/photos/moleskineart/4414620666/

Here is the web go see it :)

Fujifilm Instax mini 25s also got hello kitty version :)

Damn cute sia :)))

SEE.....

OMG DAMN CHIO ALSO RITE :(((((((((((((

I also found out that Fujifilm Mini Instax 7s got a lot of colours

see.... :)

A lot of colours rite :)))

Haiz but the hello kitty ones are the chio-est :))

But i know i will never be able to get them :(((

I am not a crazy fan of helllo kitty but it is just that i find the hello kitty(s) version nicer :(

Haiz but i know i will never get it :(

Okay so now back to blogginf about my day...

Today i didnt went to school, cos was sick.

But i am really sick *cough cough* see :(

Okay so i woke up at 4.50am today cos i was feeling very uncomfortable.

Mommy going for health checkup today so she said she will take half day after that to take care of me.

End up her doctor gave her one day mc lol

Before going see doctor, i go Post Office to collect my headphone which i bought from a blogshop

Haha here is my headphone :) Nice? lol

okay so went to see doctor after that

I got one day mc ( one day mc only :( )

Since me and mommy got one day mc, we went to turf city (she wan buy jie jie things thats y go there)

Ate MANIS MANIS :)

Damn nice.

Anyway its indo food lol

I took some pics of her and she showed off her Plantinum cards to me lol

So i took pictures of her cards too :P lol

I like both the Black Plantinum cards the most :D

So nice :DDD

She bought me a vintage bag which cost $45 CHEAP RITE!!!

She go ask for discount one lol :P

Look nicer in real dunno why in picture so fugly :(

Okay then went to buy jie jie's stuff

I bought this painless hair remover thing as i am too hairy :P

lol

Pictures of it lave to upload lol

I've just tried it and it works damn well :D

Bought 4 bads of Calbee Potato Chips :D

4 for $4.95 (CHEAP HOR!!! :D )

Bought Seaweed, Hot & Spicy, Sour Cream& Onion and Barbeque flavour :)

Okay so afterwards, bused home.

So now blogging about today.

Anyway should i go tuition later?

Starting at 5

I am damn lazy seriously.....

No mood to study either :(

Haiz...

See how bah.

For now, bye people :(

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life and I thought

"Hey, you know, this could be something"

Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing.

2010-04-19T06:34:00.000-07:00

This post majority will be about CARMEN LIM JIA WEN!
She damn irritating leh lol
Keep copy and paste thing from internet and show me
Show me all kind of quotes lol
Stupid one also got lol

So i typed this is our conv

S : i wish i could carry your smiles in my heart, when times in my life seems so low

Then she replied

C : so that , i don't have to see you i could also feel the smiles in my heart . so that, it'll make me feel better.

then i told her dun have that part
then she say............. SHE OWNSELF TYPE ONE -.-
HOW IDIOTIC CAN SHE BE
OLDER THAN ME YET THE BRAIN LIKE ONE *$&##@
LOL

Okay and now she cant stop giving me websites to view and giving me more quotations -.-
LOL
Hey feel proud okay cos i got post about you :D

Haha and another thing i want to say is to my dearest Cheryl :)
Hey girl, go for it.
You know how you really feel.
He is a really good guy.
But if you say "yes" this time, you CANNOT break his heart again :)
I will support watever your decision is (but of cos i will rather you be back with him)
He is a good guy :)
If you guys really get back, must treasure him kay ? :)
Dun bring him down with stupid reasons again(you should know wat is it)
Think properly before you make your decision :)
I know i am not in a right position to say this.
But i have said my piece, the rest is up to you.
And dun let your problems bring you down:) , like how it did to me :(

2010-04-19T02:44:00.001-07:00

Heylo people :(
I am currently in a dilema
I dunno which on to choose :(

FUJIFILM Instax Mini 25s

OR

FUJIFILM Instax Mini 7s

HOW PEOPLE!?
HELP ME DECIDE :((((

Help me tag at tagboard :)
Whether Mini 25s or Mini 7s is better
If Mini 7s tell me which colour okay ( Brown or White) :)

OKAY, so today as usual go school lor
But only that i went to school, sick.......... :(
Damn xin ku :(
I wanted to cry dunno why i think sick is like that one?
Oh ya when i bused to school with Jennis today, she said something to me(i forget wat is it), but it nearly made me cry :(((
But i held back my tears :)
Today also got History Class Test but i confirm fail cos i never study ( cos these few days no mood to study :( )
During recess, i talked to Cheryl (both of as are emo today :((( )
She talked to me about her problems
And she cried
I know how you feel Cheryl, cos i am going through the same thing now too :(((
But rest assured i will always be there for you when you need me:)
Just tell me what you need :)
So we talked and talked throughout the whole recess, talk until i also one cry liao :(
Oh so after that was a maths followed on by bio
Did bio practical it is damn..............IRRITATING!
Cos we gotta redo it over and over again D:
So after school, Abigail, Yvonne and Me went to West Coast Plaza to eat BBQ Chicken :)
Of cos we gossiped :)
HELLO! that is what girls do wat lol :P
Okay so after gossiping we went shopping in West Coast Plaza
Haha i know very stupid la cos there no shops one
But we shopped for very long in one shop.
I bought 3 clothes :)
See the pics:)
It cost $33 in total for my three clothes :(

1. POTATO tee

2.HAMBURGER tee

3. COW-EGG tee

HAHA nice?
for the potato tee i get the guy size one cos its nicer ( then i wun feel so fat) :P lol
Abigail got the same POTATO tee as me guy size too but in purple :)
That will be our couple tee :D

For the other 2 tee it is female size lol
Yvonne and Abigail bought the COW-EGG tee too :)
Abigail one is in yellow
While Yvonne one is in grey but hers is a tanktop, in grey and is vintage washed material :)
HAHA MUST WEAR OUT TOGETHER NEXT TIME KAY ;)

Only i bought the hamburger tee Yvonne didnt like it cos she said it was too colourful lol
But i just like :)

I told the shop salesperson that i like white but dun dare wear white cos i scared fat,
Then she say i too self conscious and obsessed lol
Haha no lor i am really fat wat :(((
HAHA but that salesperson was really nice :D
Sorry and thanks is what i need to say to her :)

Oh ya and i received comments about my "new hair" today
A lot of people say no diff :(((((((((((((
Dun tell me i wasted aother $3.80 again hor :(((
HAHA but thanks to 2 perwson who saw the difference :D
Nabilah and Abigail saw the difference and said i look nicer in this new hairstyle( actually only change in fringe la :P)
Nabilah saw i look chio-er (lol so bhb lol :P i know she just trying to make me happy la cos i know i am not pretty :( )
Abigail said my face look sharper ( haha thanks darling :D but i still find myself fat so ya :((( )

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm okay so what elso more should i say?
i also dunno leh oh ya i want to share a song with y'all
I will update my mixpod soon with that song :)
Here's the lyrics :

Cater 2 U

[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You, My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You (Yeah)
If I Want It (Got It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter

Let Me Help You
Take Off Your Shoes
Untie Your Shoestrings
Take Off Your Cufflinks (Yeah)
What You Want To Eat Boo? (Yeah)
Let Me Feed You
Let Me Run Your Bathwater
Whatever You Desire, I'll Aspire
Sing You A Song
Turn The Game On
I'll Brush Your Hair
Help Put Your Do Rag On
Want A Foot Rub? (Yeah)
You Want A Manicure?
Baby I'm Yours I Want To Cater To You Boy

[Chorus]
Let Me Cater To You
Cause Baby This Is Your Day
Do Anything For My Man
Baby You Blow Me Away
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want Just Let Me Cater To You
Inspire Me From The Heart,
Can't Nothing Tear Us Apart
You're All That I Want In A Man;
I Put My Life In Your Hands
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want, I Want To Cater To You

[Verse 2 Kelly]
Baby I'm Happy You're Home,
Let Me Hold You In My Arms
I Just Want To Take The Stress Away From You
Making Sure That I'm Doing My Part (Oh)
Boy Is There Something You Need Me To Do (Oh)
If You Want It (I Got It)
Say The Word (I Will Try It)
I Know Whatever I'm Not Fulfilling (Oh)
Another Woman Is Willing (Oh)
I'm Going To Fulfill Your Mind, Body, And Spirit

I Promise You (Promise You)
I'll Keep Myself Up (Oh)
Remain The Same Chick (Yeah)
You Fell In Love With (Yeah)
I'll Keep It Tight, I'll Keep My Figure Right
I'll Keep My Hair Fixed, Keep Rocking The Hottest Outfits
When You Come Home Late Tap Me On My Shoulder, I'll Roll Over
Baby I Heard You, I'm Here To Serve You (I'm Lovin It, I'm Lovin It)
If It's Love You Need, To Give It Is My Joy
All I Want To Do, Is Cater To You Boy

[Chorus]

[Bridge Michelle]
I Want To Give You My Breath, My Strength, My Will To Be Here
That's The Least I Can Do,
Let Me Cater To You
Through The Good (Good)
The Bad (Through The Bad)
The Ups And The Downs (Ups And Downs)
I'll Still Be Here For You
Let Me Cater To You
Cause You're Beautiful (You're Beautiful)
I Love The Way You Are (You Are)
Fulfill Your Every Desire (Desire)
Your Wish Is My Command (Command)
I Want To Cater To My Man
Your Heart (Your Heart)
So Pure Your Love Shines Through(Shines Through)
The Darkness We'll Get Through (So Much)
So Much Of Me Is You (Is You)
I Want To Cater To My Man

[Chorus Out]

This song is damn nice
I feel like i am living in the past these few days.
I will listen to Destiny's Child song, Blue, Westlife, Westlife Songs and more
LOL
i dunno why its just so nice
and so much meaning :)
Like this song posted here :)

Your heart. So pure your love shines through. :)

OMG i think i am having a fever now D:

I want to vomit :(

My voice changed, Puti say my voice now higher pitch LOL

I thot my voice should be lower ?!

I think i am dying D:

I can't breathe properly, my head hurts damn badly :(((

And now my mommy wan me go mop floor when she know i am sick :(((((((((((((((((((((((((

Okay she is going to scream at me if i dun do so.

So................... ciao :'(

Bye bye :'(

2010-04-18T03:32:00.000-07:00

I am damn fuckin' angry with MOMMY
Idiot
All she only know how to do is to scream at me!
WTH!
One minute ask me iron clothes, one minute ask me take water for her, i also not her maid la!!!
Anyway, this BABY here is damn nice rite(sorry for being random :P i am always like that)

OMG!!!
This is damn HAWT rite :D
I last year starting of the year already hinting my mommy buy liao
But.............she ignored
White or Brown nicer?
I find both also nice leh how?
Actually... i find brown nicer, but everyone tell me that white nicer so until so long liao still haven buy :(
And also because no money buy......cos i dun save :P
Nobody wan buy for me also... SO SAD :((((((((
If anyonw would to buy me this baby here, I WILL LOVE HIM OR HER TO BITS :D
I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL :D
Damn HAWT LEH :((( I WAN :(((

OH AND THIS IS ANOTHER THING I WAN :D
DAMN CHIO LEH :))))))))))
THIS TATOO I MEAN :)
I WAN GET IT NEXT TIME :D
But i think i if i do it i will swap the position of the "Love" and the "Laugh".

Anyway today got 红星大奖 i didnt know leh until like now...........? :P
Cos like eveytime end of the year one mah.
Oh i still remember one time its on my birthday leh LOL so happy that time :)
I also dunno why i happy for also not i take prize lor, but still happy LOL!
Oh ya i wanted to say something leh, but... i forget liao :P
I think my brain got problem
And its getting more and more serious day by day.
Usually after i bathe , maybe my house the water got problem?lol
I last time forget bring earpiece go school only, soon, house keys also forget, and now ah even WALLET so big the thing i also can forget leh!!!
Like -.- ( i wan cry liao :( )
OH YA! Talking about wallet, i forget bring wallet to school yesterday leh( inside got bus card)
Then when i go take bus i search my bag for siao cannot find leh :((((((((((
Then i tell the uncle i forget bring wallet( its damn paiseh :(( )
AND YOU KNOW WHAT???
THE UNCLE DAMN GOOD LEH!!!
Not only did he not chase me down the bus or scold me, he say nevermind leh and still let me take the bus to my destination :DDDD
SO GOOD RITE!!!
LOVE THE UNCLE TO BITssssssssssssss!!!
He should get the BEST BUS DRIVER AWARD(if there is one) :)

HAHA so now i should get back to the point
Wat did i do today?
Hmmmmmmmmm.... oh ya as usual went church, tuitoned and home
Damn boring rite my life!?
Then after go home, iron clothes lor :(((((((((((
HAIZ sian my life is so"fun".
I just now so angry with my mom until i wan cry liao. :(
She la damn ass leh :(

OH YA anyway let me share with you all a message that my 3rd CLOSEST FRIEND send to me lol
The Message :
HAHAHA. :D
havent yet!!!!!! :P
think tonight? :P
dunt know leh. i love my 3rd closest friend!!!! :D
haha sorry if I've done anything wrng tt had made you angry/upset. :(

HAHA this is wat my 3rd CLOSEST FRIEND aka BARBIE aka Someone! :} aka BABE aka (this last name cannot say or she will kill me) say.
LOL i laugh like hell when i received this LOLOLOLOL HAHAHAHA!!!
SO GAY OF HER :P
But i appreciate it la :)
HAHA thanks BABE( i mean the pig) LOL

OH YA and................ i damn sad now :( I TOMORROW GOT HISTORY TEST AND I HAVEN STUDY LEH!!! :((((((((((((((((((((((((((
DIE!!!
SHOOT ME NOW , FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
THESE FEW DAY I NO MOOD TO STUDY AT ALL DIE!!! HOW!? :((((
I next next week mid year liao leh and i damn unprepared, cos i dunno anything :((((((((
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
DAMN SAD AND SCARED I WAN TO DIE LIAO :(

And mommy is being very irritating now.
She keep on say that the world is going to end soon -.-
END THEN END LA SO????????!!!
Damn irritating
i dun see got what thing not good if the world end leh???
No more PROBLEMS anymore!
NOT GOOD MEH???
Complain for wat?
Whole day keep on complaining stress!!
Now GOD granting your wish leh to take away your stress still keep complaining -.-
DAMN IRRITATING !!!
HAIYO!!!
Ok i am so bored now i think i am going to find something to do
CIAO :0
:(((((

2010-04-17T07:33:00.000-07:00

My heart hurts so badly all of a sudden...
I dunno why:(
I wanna/needa cry so badly
is that part of me revealing itself again?
I am trying very hard already...
Why I still can't forget? :(
I really feel tormented and torn apart now...
Gawd help me:(

2010-04-17T06:26:00.000-07:00

Survivor

Now that you're out of my life
I'm so much better
You thought that I'd be weak without you
But I'm stronger
You thought that I'd be broke without you
But I'm richer
You thought that I'd be sad without you
I laugh harder
You thought I wouldn't grow without you
Now I'm wiser
Though that I'd be helpless without you
But I'm smarter
You thought that I'd be stressed without you
But I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without you
Sold 9 million

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

Thought I couldn't breathe without
I'm inhaling
You thought I couldn't see without you
Perfect vision
You thought I couldn't last without you
But I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without you
But I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without you
But I'm on top
Thought it would be over by now
But it won't stop
Thought that I would self destruct
But I'm still here
Even in my years to come
I'm still gon be here

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

I'm wishin' you the best
Pray that you are blessed
Bring much success, no stress, and lots of happiness
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gon blast you on the radio
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gon lie on you and your family
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gon hate on you in the magazines
('m better than that)
I'm not gon compromise my Christianity
(I'm better than that)
You know I'm not gon diss you on the internet
Cause my mama taught me better than that

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

(Beyonce)
Oh (oh) oh (oh)...

After of all of the darkness and sadness
Soon comes happiness
If I surround my self with positive things
I'll gain prosperity

I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm not gon give up (What?)
I'm not gon stop (What?)
I'm gon work harder (What?)
I'm a survivor (What?)
I'm gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin' (What?)

This lyrics is for my ex ( the bastard one)
Saw him at JE today (again)!
Spoil my mood -.-
He is the worst guy i ever seen.
Please la i am not a whore okay
Dun come and ask me for sex just whenever you want
We are over liao SEE THIS OVER!
And you disgust me
I think you got a girlfriend now so... STOP HARASSING ME!
Which person or guy in the right mind would constantly keep asking their ex girlfriend for sex(somemore that guy got girlfriend now)?
Fuck rite?
Desperate shit. NO NO NO even shit better than him :)
I am so lucky that i am done and over with you :D
Or maybe should i say i never leven liked you before.
You are the desperate one who somehow "force" me to be with you -.-
Okay so what i wan say is... hope you didnt saw me today :x
Even if you saw also not my problem.
Oh ya and i sincerely pray that you will not die of AIDS :)
But...chances are 99.99999999999999999999999999999999% :DDDD

Okay dun talk about that bastard liao not fun
so suay leh whole day see him at JE
like one fuck _|_ -.-
Okay lets say today
Went for sia lesson,
I AM A SURVIVOR i survived his lessons :D
then after went home, changed and took a lonf bus ride to BUGIS for chinese tuition
AND I SURVIVED IT TOO (cos i am a SURVIVOR!)
Okay so later took a long bus ride back to house busstop to meet jie to go to bukit batok snip avenue to cut hair and do treatment.
Yup the treatment is damn good and ya i cut my fringe
this time is obvious liao hor dun say no diff again :(
i will sad la duh like waste of my $3.80 :x
haha okay so after that took 176 to JE change bus when i saw the bastard-.-
Okay dun say him liao yup so i changed to 51 and went home
Haiz when reached home what else can it be?
NAGGING LOR :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
Seriously, i had enough :(
ya so i went to do my own things
and now i am here blogging :)
OH YA i damn sad cos two of my piercings close :(((((((((((
Haiz, talking about long bus rides, i love it but it makes me feels sad too :(
but i just love taking long bus rides cos i am a lazy person
thats why so fat :(((((((((((
i wan kill myself liao :((((

I love love love long bus rides because it allows me to be alone and think through things. Ya and that leads to me thinking too much D: . Okay then soon i will feel sad....... its like a process i guess?
OH YA i nearly forget today when i was taking my long bus ride, i saw a couple doing things
you should know wat i mean
and HELLO!!! you are in a bus means its PUBLIC leh
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!
Are you all so sex deprived?
So desperate?
Go get a room la!
I am not someone that is against sex but... in public area leh hello!!! do you have any shame??? I GUESS NOT.

OH ya so all because of them i cannot have my long bus ride in ease.
Okay but i tried to ignore them.
So i went back to thinking about things.
Useless things, some may say.
The more i think the more scared i am :(((
Scared of what? EVERYTHING!!!
I think i suffer from PANOPHOBIA :(((((

PROBLEMS STILL KEEP SURFACING :(((((((((((
when the earlier problems haven even been solved yet :(
seriously, i am going berserk!
OMG my head is cracking liao :(
Why am i feeling so bad inside now? :((
I MISS DADDY :(
DADDY CAN YOU HELP ME?
come in my dreams and tell me what to do.
now, whenever i go to bugis(which is like every saturday), i will think of my dad, and my heart hurts :(
I know some people may think i am cold blooded when i tell them about what happened to my dad without crying.
Its not that i am cold blooded but...its just that i dun see the point of showing you all how i really feel.
What can you all do?
Ask me dun cry only rite?
And i also dun wan you all worry so nvm bah keep it to myself :)
I know i love my dad can liao.
I dun need care what others think(cold blooded or what).

There are still so many things i want to say to you.
But i guess its all too late now...

2010-04-16T20:11:00.000-07:00

I just survived mr sia lesson without doing any of his homework
but luckily he nvr check or I will die badly:O
still need go for Chinese tuition later:((((((((
I wan die Liao:((((
now, my stomach hurts like shit I think u am going to die soon
the pain is so... consistent?
Omg I am dying
but good :)
I am damn scared cos I am super unprepared:((((
could someone just shoot me like NOW!!!???

:( dying.

2010-04-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl
ya I know I just blogged
But I am SO DAMN BORED NOW :(
and I think you all should know the timing of the post is wrong I also dunno why like that
so weird.
Oh ya... Should I make my blog private???
Tag me ok to tell me or you can text me if you know my number la lol

Hey, guess wat?
Just watched a "documentary"
And they said they world is coming to an end!!!
WOOHOO~!! YAY!! :D
HOW NICE? :)
seriously, I am waiting for the day to come
I can be free from all my problems:D
how nice rite :D
who call now got sone stupid law!!!
Cannot commit suicide!
Commit Suicide also must go jail if never die like wth rite
I also not killing other people, I killing myself leh HELLO?!
Ya so so sad lor cannot commit suicide:(
if die already still nvm leh, nvr die still must go jail-.-
lol stupid law

Is that what you really think of me?
If that is true, I am disappointed.

I know getting over you would be or I should say, will be hard.
But I never knew that it would be this hard. :(

2010-04-16T07:04:00.000-07:00

Today "no school"
in terms, didn't study cos got sports day
I will skip the whole sports day part cos it's so damn boring that I nearly rot to death D:
okay so the whole thing ended at around 1.15pm when they say should end at 12noon
cheat my feelings leh :(
so sad :(((
okay so after that went out :D
went to bukit timah irv basement to play pool.
Before that went westmall to eat
Cheryl, Carmen, Jennis, Yvonne, SekSuan, Candra, QiGuang, Sean, Donald, WeiLin, YanKeng and ME went for lunch at westmall
after that all of us except Cheryl went to irc basement for pool.
Yup we brought clothes to change
but when go there we found out that can wear uniform in -,-
bring clothes for nothing! TSK!
Yup so some of them played pool first while the others LAN-ED first
okay so around 5 plus Carmen, SekSuan, YanKeng and QiGuang gtg first
So Jennis teamed with Donald while I teamed with WeiLin for pool lol
first round we won, second round they won lol so equal
oh ya when we were playing got a lot of irritating people.
Got ah lians with act cute voices speaking vulgaritiea and playing songs with loudspeakers so inconsiderate la dun know wat is called earpiece, tsk!
Then of cos got ah bengs also la like duh...
Damn noisy whole they fuck here fuck there knn here knn there cb here cb there and of cos got lj her lj there -.-
their vocabs are so...LIMITED! Lol losers la
those ah lians and ah bengs think their voice louder then win Liao lame -.-
totally no brains -.-
jennis said something about them made me laughed like siao lol:D
oh ya when we playing pool, Sean Yvonne and Candra was LAN-ING
lol
Ya... So they played LAN until around 7 plus then they said they got to go too
haha so after they went we( me jennis weilin and donald ) completes our last game and went for dinner at westmall kfc
haha ya westmall again lol :x
oh ya the pool cost us $23.30
damn cheap rite somemore shared by so many people leh lol!
Ok so after eating kfc then go home liao
weilin and donald mrt-ed home while me and jennis bus-ed home cos I cannot go home so early due to some personal reasons.
Yup so reached home around 10pm and I am now here, crapping...
Lol hope those who are reading are not bored.lol!!!
Haiz tomorrow still got sia lesson and Chinese tuition:(((((
so xin ku you know :((((((((
weekends leh :(((((
haiz.
Will blog tomorrow again if I have the time ciao:)

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day :( D:
thanks jennis for encouraging me but you know... I am such a loser.
So ya... But still, thanks babe :)

2010-04-15T06:18:00.000-07:00

HEYLO PPL :D
SEE MY PIC :D
okay la i know ugly la can... :(
aiya watever lol
i found this pic in Daren's phone
He tou pai me :O lol FAKKKEEEE
i also dunno who take one but in his phone so i stole MY photo from him lol.
That photo was like taken on 10 February 2010 lol so longgggggggggggg agooo
lol i remember that time i was doing BIO (bio focus)

Okay dun talk about that photo liao..
So today what happen?
hmmmmm
normal school day lor
then got e maths focus.
then........ go WCPlaza with DARLING ABIGAIL AND AMELOO DARLING and the FOREVER IRRITATING DAREN( SCROTUM) LOL :D
ya drank ICE SHAKEN LEMON TEE in STARBUCKS
Shared with my darling(amelia) :)
Ok so chat a while and stuff then DAREN AND ABI gtg.
LEFT ME AND AME so went to eat dinner at THAI EXPRESS:)
OK SO EAT LIAO then go home
reached home around 7 plus (mommy nagged again :( )
but luckily i said something to make her happy :)

TOMORROW IS SPORTS DAY!!!
WOOOHOOOO ~
MEANS NO NEED STUDY :D YAY!!!
TOMORROW WILL FINISH SCHOOL EARLY SO WILL GO PLAY POOL AT IRC :D

OK now i am talking to two person online
1)AMELIA DARLING, she so cuteee lol
wanna see the conv ? actually nothing much la
AJR♥ says:
Hello hello hellowww
Sheryl QQ. says:
hellos darling aka sista
AJR♥ says:
Haha.
How you going there tmr?
Sheryl QQ. says:
walk there
lol
FAKEEEEEEEEEEEEE
AJR♥ says:
-_-
Sheryl QQ. says:
hehe
i also dunno
AJR♥ says:
Meet at bukit gombak mrt station ok?

Around 7+ i think.
Sheryl QQ. says:
okok )

AJR♥ says:
i call you tmr.
Sheryl QQ. says:
7+ ?
AJR♥ says:
?
Sheryl QQ. says:
haha i will wait for your call darling

AJR♥ says:
Hahah.
around 7 like that
Sheryl QQ. says:
ok
i thot yvonne say 6.15?
AJR♥ says:
i'm not meeting her already
she have to reach there by 6.45
blow balloons. D:
Gotta go study already. byebyeee. See you tmr. ♥

YUP and another person is........

2) TERENCE
haha i am so not going to write our conv here so dun worry
hey you must feel honoured that i post about you okay
and muist thank me for doing your blog also hor :D
FAKEEEEEEEEEEEE
ok la i will nt say you are SIAO
OOOPPPPPPPPPPPS i said it :P LOL

okay so i think theres like nothing more to crap now, will continue crapping tomorrow
CIAO ;)

the pain is killing me :(

2010-04-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

ALL OUT OF LOVE

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

[Chorus:]
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

[Chorus:]
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

[Chorus: 3x]
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

This song is freakin' nice :(
And it best describes my mood now.
Air Supply and Westlife sang this
BUT OF COS, I WILL PREFER THE WESTLIFE ONE!!!
HUGE FAN YOU KNOW :D

WESTLIFE ROCKS :DDDDDD

okay let me quote some sentences that shows how i feel like now?

Er........... so i just read the whole lyrics again.
So actually the whole song and like every sentence suits me
ya...
so dun need quote liao.

Haiz life is damn.............. :(
Nothing much to say today.
Bye bye.

2010-04-12T06:10:00.000-07:00

D:
Pride is getting in the way.
You have really great friends who cares for you.
Treasure them.
Don't make them worry for you.

2010-04-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

I am such a useless bitch:(
FUCK!
Hate my life!! :(
I still miss and love you a lot :(
haiz...
When can I get over it?

2010-04-09T10:59:00.000-07:00

Baby, I'm sorry. :(
I still love you a lot.
I know I have to let you go.
But I can't or is it I dun wan to?
But dun worry, I will keep it to myself.

3 or maybe 4 hot korean guys :)

2010-04-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

Heylo people :)

today, only pictures :)
Not of me, but some hot guys :D
*Clap Clap

Firstly, Taeyang
Haha see damn hawt rite :)
Wedding Dress :(
sad song ( to me)
I hate the other guy >:/
that bastard
see the mv and you will know why :)

Okay and all these are Onew
So hawt also rite and cute :)
but got one extra one down there JongHyun-.-
spoil the pic -.-
haha joking la CARMEN!! dun angry :)
he also not bad lol

Lastly, the cutest one!!!
Key :)
so cute rite lol
actually i like the headphone which is around his neck
i saw a similar one
and its pink :)
damn hawt!!!
i wan to buy it but damn big :)
but now i see he got i more wan to buy :)
haha

All these three are hot :)
Today is the Korean Boyband day lol
haha i am just crapping lol
yup these three are the hawtest :)
no biasness lol

tomorrow then blog some serious stuff
not in the mood for anything serious today
CYA;)

2010-04-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

I dunno y...
Obviously I still feel sad.
And I think I will nvr get over it.
Some friends are true some friends cannot even be called friends.
Cos they go with you just for the sake of doing so.
Thanks to all who say that you all will always be there for me
I know who is telling the truth
you all should know yourself better.
It hurts me to see you like these
I know I shouldn't talk to you like this.
Buy maybe if I am mean to you or cold to you you will forgets faster?
I still want to be friends with you but I dun have the courage to do so.
Pls tell me what to do.
I think you must hate me now for treating you like this
but I am left with no choice
cos i think this will be better for you?
Will it?
Or by doing this I am just plain stupid?
You know I can nvr pretend that I nvr know you before.
I hope you will never come to know I still keep the promises between us although I know some can't be fufilled anymore.
I still love you (a lot)
but I guess you must hate me now and you are ready to give up hope on me
I guess that will be good cos that is the first step for you being able to move on.
You said you wish to be back with me.
Seriously, I am dying to be back with you too.
but I can't be so selfish of to think of myself
I always wanted to tell you all these but I just can't
maybe if you see this you will understand
but I guess you will never see this so it's okay.
I dub mind having me to love you only you dub need me to love you back cos wat I want for you is to
move on cos I am not worth it.
You told me forever I told you I can't believe it
now not only I shattered my dreams, I shattered yours too
because of me you may not believe in forever again
there is only one word I can say about this
"Sorry."
you said you can't be so selfish to continue hanging on to me
do you know how I wish that you were more selfish?
I guess you will never know...
No matter what I will always be the same and this will never change.
I love you.

2010-04-06T06:35:00.000-07:00

Life still suck as much.
Can you pls dun run away from the problem?
Just face it!
Anyway I am growing fatter:(
I am going to fast liao :(
I swear to god that I will not be going out with jennis anymore( cos with her will grow fat)
I already fat enough liao this stupid pig still wan sabo me:(
haiz sian :(

2010-04-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

You always think you know what's the best for me.
But...
In fact, you don't know.
Seeing you like these won't make me feel happier either.
When will you ever come to realize it?

Never...I suppose.

2010-04-04T04:41:00.000-07:00

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket.
But I've got to get a move on with my life.
It's time to be a big girl now.
And big girls don't cry.

However, sometimes...big girls do cry too.
How I wish I could be as strong as her.

I seriously wish to move out of my house as soon as possible
you all will never know how hard is it for me now
all you all know how to do is to scold and scold even more and conplain that I've got attitude problem
please look at yourself before talking to me.
You are very selfish you only want me to hear about your problems.
But when I want to tell you mine, you don't even bother.
You can deny now.
But think about it deeper.
What I say is true.
Whenever I tell you something, your answer to me is "orh, okay lor then what you want me to do?" , sometimes you don't even bother answering me, you know how it feels?
I dun think you will ever know.
Call yourself a sister.
Like it or not, this is me.
You are the one that is having attitude problem now, because of your boyfriend.
Most importantly, don't make your problem my problem since you dun even care about my problems
, why should I even care about yours?
Cos now you are the one showing attitude to me.
Get your facts right.
Sometimes when you all scold me and I dun reply, is not that I am showing attitude.
it's just that I don't see the point to it.
Cos you all will never understand.
So...don't always tell me you understand how I feel, cos you never will.

Studies problem, friends problem, relationship problem and now even family problems.
When are all these problems going to go away?
Or should I ask if there are more problems coming?

I'm really trying my best already, but thing still doesn't seem to be changing for the better.

2010-04-03T07:48:00.000-07:00

If that could make you feel better, why not?
It is better if one person suffers rather than both.
And I dun mind being the one suffering.
Karma.

2010-04-03T06:20:00.000-07:00

Heylo ppl long time no blog :) lol
that smiley was so fake :(
now this is real... D:
ok so today went to school for sia lesson then went to do flag day :)
ps is ps la but fun :)
thanks to those ppl who gave money :D
god bless you :)
oh ya so did flag day at jurong east area it's for Xin Yuan Community Care.
Okay so I learnt how to be thickskin today? Haha lol
ahhhh so tired now... :(
sorry for being random.
Let me continue.
So after flagday, I went home
soon mommy and jie came home from jb lol so fast.
Ate the herbal chicken they bought from there
damn nice:D
then went out to meet jennis yvonne qiguang donald sean and yankeng at clementi interchange to bus to bukit timah for pool :)
went to eat with jennis at mac when the others were playing
after eating went back to find them
weilin joined us too I mean for pool
and qiguang went off first.
played for around three hours
and you know wat...
I STILL SUCK IN IT -.-
dun laugh hor or I will sad :(
actually didn't really play la was just crapping around :P
left there around 7.30 or 8
went to cheers to buy a drink with jennis damn nice :)
anyway me and jennis wear the same shirt today ( diff colour):)
but of cos she wear it nicer la lol
oh she bought me dove chocolates from cheers too :)
then... took the long bus ride home
talked a lot
told her about how I feel now and stuff dunno if she understand or not.
She told me her stuff too.
Shhh... SECRET!
Yup so now just reached home.
Fun day today :)
haiz...but dunno y I still dun feel happy
my mood these few days really suck
even my mom says I got attitude problem now :(
and I think my sister told her the cause of it ...
Teachers and friends often tells me guys tend to get over things faster and that girls are more sentimental.
I think it's true so next life I wan be a guy!
I think you have gotten over it already(since you are a guy)
but I haven :( ( such a loser rite! I know la... :( )
I wish you will never know that I still love you.
It sounds ironic rite but that the only unselfish thing I can do.

Friends who are once lovers are either never once in love or still in love.

2010-04-02T08:08:00.000-07:00

I fucking hell hate my mom
how I wish I dun need to see her ever!

Life have been like shit like-.-
dun wanna talk about it anymore
fucking hate my mom
hope she faster die
I know I will come to regret wat I say someday
but fir now I dun care
I just wan her dead!

Pls stop running away from the problem will you?
Dun leave me hangin... :(

...

2010-03-29T07:09:00.000-07:00

I am doing this to try to make me feel better...
Haiz...
Thanks people I know u all r trying to comfort me but... There is no need to worry
I think you all know when I said I am ok I am lying.
Sorry that's the only thing I can do now...
I know I am such a loser and that I am very useless.
Haiz... That's me
I dunno what are we now.(although we have broken up it still feels like things haven really ended I dunno why)
but I will take it as we are nothing now.
We can't be friends as ppl always say friends who were once lovers are either still in love or never once in love.
But if we are still friends you cannot continue to love me that way as you would needto move on by then.
I know I can't bring myself to love you as a friend so... I would rather us not be friends if that is the case.
Cos I know I cannot be so selfish.
Promise me to be happy will you?

Do you know how it feels to cry yourself to sleep everynight?
I am constantly living in a nightmare that I would never wake up from...

sorry...

2010-03-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking a lot lately...

You all may think i have attitude problems or watever...
But i think from now on i will keep things to myself.
Then i wont have those "attitude" problems anymore. :)

So... i would either private this blog or write it in my diary instead
I dun feel like exchanging diary at the end of the year cos i think that is a very personal thing. So you dun even need to think about it.

My family, my friends, my studies, and some problems led me into such a emotional state.

I dunno when i could get over these.
It's not that easy... i hope you all can understand.
But can you all please dun force me to say things out.
Cos i really dun feel lik saying.
I know you all care, like the chinese saying "ru guo ba tai duo shi bie zai xin li hui men si ren".
So, i know you all wish i could say it out.

But... i dun know how to express it out in words and i think that there isn't any point.

Talking about friends? I seriously dunno if i'v got a true friend.
I seriously wish i could find a friend that i can share everything with and that friend would always be there for me.
Can this friend faster come around? Cos i need you badly now :(

You all may think that i am stupid, and say that i should faster give it up.
Trust me, i am really trying very hard to... but i can't :(
Thats is why i say i can't even trust myself.
Sorry...
Just let me be like that?
I know you all hate to see me like that and you all say that you all hope to see a happy Sheryl Quah again.
But...sorry, i can't promise that.

Will i ever get over it?
Will i be happy again?
Questions like these keep running through my mind.
But i promise you all that you all will never see me cry again.
Cos i know you all are scared of it... sorry D:

I will always be there for you(all), but will you(all) always be there for me?

Why is my heart hurting so badly?

2010-03-26T07:18:00.000-07:00

Had physics, pe, a maths ,bio and hmtl for school today.
I passed my 2.4 :D
So happy LOL :D
But damn tired also D:
After school, slacked in school library with abigail and amelia for a while.
Library damn cold :(
Damn hungry cos never eat for the whole day except for the hashbrown that amelia treat me eat.
Went to eat with abigail at Ayer rajah market at 4+ 5pm.
Ate hokkien mee :)
Then went to jurong east with abigail.
Chat a lot when eating and during the bus journey to jurong east.
Drank bubble tea at jurong east.
Then went to tuition centre there to meet yvonne for tuition
Damn tired
Keep laughing during tuition I think cos I too tired
Ok then after that went home.
I am damn tires now:(
But still going for a walk with my sister...I think

Oh ya mr sia scold me today cos I forget bring my hw I really forget :(
Oh and I am married to abigail today :D

OH OH OH
Guess who I saw!?
Haha actually it's just my ex la LOL
Yucks spoil my day leh see until him-.-
Haha he now shorter than me lol
Hope he didn't saw me
Feel damn disgusted when I see him hate him to the fucking core!!!
Haiz but he damn rich:(
LOL
Joking la I not so practical
AND I WILL STILL HATE HIM FOR LIFE ! :)

2010-03-25T06:24:00.001-07:00

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back

2010-03-25T01:56:00.001-07:00

Its been days since i used the com...(previously i was using i touch so if you see me online...yah)

Today was ???
I also dunno what to say about today :P

Ok so let me recall...

Oh today first period was HMTL -.-
Sian must do zuo wen, i asked Mr Tie if can pass up tmr he say cannot by today after school.
But as you know... i don't have gao zi(excuse) LOL
Seriously is because i dun wan to do and i dun care!

Ya then later it was maths... nothing much too
Then it was History... also nothing much.

Oh then recess.
Then i went over to Carmen's "table" to talk
She made me laugh like mad( as usual)
She can be the best remedy ( for now)
She talked abut a lot of rubbish, the same old things like everybody like her lke that -.-

AND most importantly, about this one guy called YOGA
i dunno if that is how his name is spelt but its weird.
I THINK CARMEN LIKES HIM AND JUST DUN WAN ADMIT -.-
admit it la carmen if you see this)

She is crazy over that guy.
Talk so much rubbish about him ( i laugh so much till i cried)

Disclaimer : To CARMEN LIM JIA WEN --> I DUN LIKE HIM! HE IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND! I DUN EVEN KNOW HIM! YOU LIKE HIM THEN SAY LA! DUN PUSH YOUR RUBBISH TO ME!!!

Ya carmen you seriously need to see this...

Ok so that was about it for recess

Then it was ENGLISH.
I laughed like mad too.
Not my fault cos it is really very funny...
Dun wan go into detail very lazy type :P

Anyway which "sentence" is correct?

a) All of a sudden,
b) Out of a sudden,
c) All out of a sudden,

Seriously i dunno which one is correct.
Ans because of this question i laughed like mad.

Call me crazy if you like...

Okay so after english it was basics... nothing much too
FOCUS session? (dun even wan to talk about it)

After focus/remedial , went to eat ice cream with Amelia, Krisha and Yvonne.
Yah it was raining... haiz so sad :(
But feels good to eat ice-cream when raining.

After eating ice cream then went home lor then here i am now tying all these cos i am so so so so so so so so so.........................BORED!!!

Haiz i think its because i feel empty?

OH yeah i have to thank ABIGAIL damn alot for comforting me yesterday when i was crying (seriously its not weird to see Sheryl Quah cry nowadays)
Ya she hugged me when i cry i thot i will feel better and stop crying but i cried even louder.
She told me she will be there for me whenever i need her. :) THANKS ABY, love ya:)
BUT i also need to thank the others who came to comfort me to :)
You know who you are :)

Yeah... i also need to say sorry to all my girlfriends for letting you all see me in this state now.
I should'nt have cried and make you all worry, sorry gals :(
I hope i can go back to lead my "normal" life soon...
I have no mood t study these few days... dunno y just no mood.
Maybe i will fail o levels? High possibility.

I know i can't continue being like that but... haiz nvm. (cos i dunno how to say it too)
I dunno when i will break down and cry again(cos this thing is like really random)

This "thing" hit me so hard.
I dunno why it made such a great impact.
Seriously, in all my other "past", i was never like that before.
Maybe i was really heartless last time... so now got karma.
I dunno when i can totally forget.
In days? Weeks? Months? Years? or maybe even Never?
i dunno and i dun wan to think so much now...(you all may find it rather exaggerating but actually, its not.)
Sometimes i wish that we never met so that both of us(or maybe me only) dun have t go through this...pain.
Sometimes i even wish to get into some accident and lost my memory.
But...things cant be changed like this.
I will still have to face it. :(
I miss him(damn badly).
He is i think so far the best in all my other past.
Cos he dun treat me like dirt.
But sad to say i am not the right person for him
Cos i dunno what he is thinking and what he wants
So ya...
Sigh...
Maybe Carmen do her stupid things deliberately to make me laugh or feel better?
i dunno but i will still love her even if its not.
Ya many of you will just ask me to get over it like how i used to last time.
But i dunno why this time its so difficult.
It feels like i will never forget...
Haiz...i think i will stop here.

Bye people.

2010-03-24T05:49:00.000-07:00

Haiz...
Since last friday until now, I everyday also feel like vomiting :(
Die...
Dunno wat happen :(
Indigestion? Or maybe Cancer?
Haiz... Do too much bad things liao that's why will like that
Karma befalling :(
Bye I am going to die soon :(

2010-03-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

Feeling so empty now...
Dunno why
When can I get over it...? :(

Heard about the talk today
I found the I got no where to go...

DIE :(

2010-03-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

Empty promises...
But I dun blame you
It's just karma
What goes around comes around...
You are the one whom I love the most
Cry for the most
And being hurt for the most
Although we are not together anymore
I still love you
I really dunno how long it would take to forget you
But I will try
Forget me too(maybe you have already forgotten)
But it's ok
Hope you find a much more better girl than me
Although I dun wan to see wat is happening now, but I can't be so selfish
Therefore I will do as you say
Goodbye and sorry

I am damn tired...

2010-03-22T07:08:00.000-07:00

I am feeling tired liao. But...why can't I let it go? Life is so practical.

You PMS like a BITCH i would know...

2010-03-20T03:46:00.000-07:00

Haiz... i think i am running a fever soon :(
Die!
Somemore going back school liao :((

To Girlfriends :
I am okay now la (really)
See --> :D
Haha now you all know i okay liao rite
And you all should know i am not those kind of people will do stupid things
So Wu Liao and so not worth it la lol...

Sorry vonniiieee for not attending tuition yesterday...was not feeling well :(
But i will attend tomorrow one :D although i actually dun wan to... :(
SIAN!!!
Hate tuition
Hopw hw dun see this :P
haha FAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
LOL :P

Haha oh ya i just remembered...
Thanks ppl for toleraring my bad attitude this few days
I think is due to PMS :P
REALLY!!! Ytd last day liao :D
Wait next month i will PMS you all again lol......... JOKING :P

Okay dun play liao
Bye bye :)

Tired Liao...

2010-03-19T09:01:00.000-07:00

Damn I am tired about this liao... Seriously no matter how many times we talk over this, things still wun change and I am fucking annoyed and tired. Why are there so many fucking problem!!! PISSED!!! This is so going to be the last straw -.- cos I am FUCKING TIRED of all these nonsense!!! It's bloody annoying la! You may say I PMS but it's true lor. If you wan to continue like this then like this lor I dun fuck care anymore! And if you wan to ask why I like this or if I am angry, answer will be: YES I AM FUCKING ANGRY AND SUPER ANNOYED NOW! I HAVE ENOUGH OF ALL THESE NONSENSE! And if you were to ask for a break now my answer will be WHATEVER cos not only you can feel tired irritated angry or unhappy I CAN TOO!!!!! Argh fuck my life to the fucking core!

2010-03-18T08:13:00.000-07:00

He knows... Sorry dear .

I lied again...

2010-03-18T07:31:00.000-07:00

This time I lied again ... And I think he knows...(maybe not?)

Why?

2010-03-17T01:31:00.000-07:00

Things between us are okay now

But why am i still not happy?

2010-03-14T17:56:00.000-07:00

Things have gone way out of hands these days

My close girlfriend and maybe my sister will know wat i am going through

Not only one thing but a number of it...

I dun think YOU will read this but this is the only way i can express what i really feel

Sorry for initiating the break(though i dun really know wat are we now)...but there are a lot of things going on these days and i dun wan to affect you because of my mood

I love you a lot but i can't be so selfish to hold on

You said our thinkings are different however i think that it the distance problem
I can't always go out...

It not easy, now i know why

You said to let us be friend till we sort things out and said that if there are any better guys than you in the mean time, you will ask me to move on.

I dun mind us being friends for now and sort things out but it makes me feel sad whenever i see the later part of it...and this is not the first time you said things like this...

I really love you and i dun want to break but i really cant be so selfish

So.... if things are sorted out and we still cant find where the problem is...i think its best for us to just break.

Please dun always think you are making me suffer you are too demanding or you are not a good guy for me cos you already are.... its just that the problem lies on me.

Sorry, for making you suffer with me.

I tend to feel lost, confused and insecure.

You alwas wan me to trust you fully.

But i can only reply you : I try

I trust you but not fully yet

I dunno when i can trust you fully it takes time cos until now i trust no one fully...not even myself.

Sorry this is why i think i am wasting your time and i am not worth your time.

Whenever i have set down my mind to let you go you always say things to let me feel touch and then later regret initiating the break or the thought of breaking

Its you who seriously deserve a better girl you should stop wasting time on me (i am selfish)

I will not blame you if you were the one who initiate the break

But please dun always think that by you leaving me it will be better for me....because i really dunno if it would be better.

Dun always think for me, think for yourself you said all you want is for me to be happy but all i want is also for you to be happy i dun wan you to suffer with me... cos i am not a good person, and i am so not worth it.

Do things which you think can make you feel happier, i dun wan you to feel moddy the whole day or even affect your studies for me

If things can be better for you if we are apart I WILL LET YOU GO without regrets(i hope so..).

Dun always think i dun love you, i really love you a lot but its just that i really dun know how to express it or i dun know how to express it in the way you wan me to expres. Sorry

There are some family matters too...

Since my grandmother is hospitalized until now i haven got a chance to see her i hope she is okay
and will stay healthy.

I feel that i am not a good grand daughter i want to treat her well cos i dun wan to live with regrets like in my father's case.

I regreted not spending more time with you, i love you and miss you a lot.

To me, you are the best dad ever.

So one thing to people who are reading these (which i doubt anyone will) :

TREASURE THEM(no matter who or what) WHEN THEY ARE STILL AROUND DUN COME TO REGRET WHEN THEY ARE GONE

i have gone through this i now how hard is it to live in regret(s).
i dun wan people to leave in the same regret as me.

I hope my dad could see this : DADDY I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU A LOT can you please at least appear in my dreams?

I will continue to "talk" to me dad when i am not "feeling well".
Although i do not know how he will reply i believe he will still guide me in some way

So many things ( to me is a lot) have happen to me and the only thing i can say about all these that are happening to me now is that it is all KARMA. Cos WHAT GOES AROUND COME AROUND.

2010-03-06T07:44:00.000-08:00

OH YA SONG FOR THE DAY...

NEVER AGAIN ( this song is not in my MIXPOD i think i will put it inside

soon if i find the time or when i got mood to...)

Yup so ya the song is....

NEVER AGAIN

Would have given up my life for you

Guess it's true what they say about love

It's blind

Girl, you lied straight to my face

Looking in my eyes

And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life

And all you had to do

Was apologize

You didn't say you're sorryI don't understand

You don't care that you hurt me

And now I'm half the man

That I used to be when it was you and me

You didn't love me enough

My heart may never mend

And you'll never get to love me, again

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line

Helpless watched you break this heart of mine

And loneliness only wants you back here with me

Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me

And all you had to do

Was apologize, and mean it

But you didn't say you're sorry

I don't understand

You don't care that you hurt me

And now I'm half the man

That I used to be when it was you and me

You didn't love me enough

My heart may never mend

And you'll never get to love me

I wish like hell I could go back in time

Maybe then I could see how

Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try

But it's too late, it's over now

You didn't say you're sorry

I don't understand

You don't care that you hurt me

And now I'm half the man

That I used to be when it was you and me

You didn't love me enough

My heart may never mend

And you'll never get to love me

Again

Again, yeah, yeah

Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah

Never get to love me

2010-03-06T05:18:00.000-08:00

Thanks BABEs (to all my girlfriends)

WO YE AI NI :)

When will all these ever end?

I believe in fortune cookies

Ate 2 today

Both of it are close to wat i am feeling now :O

I will try and go find it then type it out

CYA :)

FMFLTTFC

2010-03-06T01:36:00.000-08:00

Don't ask me to decide.

You all know that i am bad at making decisions.

2010-03-03T06:16:00.000-08:00

To hang on or to move on? :(

Lyrics of the day :)

Make Love - Big Bang

I never knew I'd find a love so true
This one right here, is just for you

Remember that One day
I held your hands then I kissed your lips then I told you
Our love was meant to be and always will forever
Give me that happiness I get from you just being there

I always see you when I close my eyes, you're on my mind
So can't you see, I need you right here wit me, close by my side
This time for sure, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you're my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you're my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that I'm yours
And that your mine
That's how we got this far
Let's never be apart
Girl, you're my queen
I'm here for you
'Cuz you're my everything

You always make me feel like everything's gonna be alright
Wit the things you do, becuz it's you the real true love of my life
This time fo sho, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

Uh... baby!
You know I'd walk them miles
Climb mountains switch up styles
All I wanna do, is be with you
Ain't no matter what, where and how
[Right here and now] we can both get down [straight work it out] yeah
Like that sound bump 'n grindin' perfect timin'
Let's dine and both be proud yeah yeah yeah

Gonna take you on a joyride today
Me and you stay true never hesitate
To make love — sho nuff
You're the only one I'm ever thinkin' of
Just to hold you baby I can hardly wait
As we go through the motions damn it's great
To make love — sho 'nuff
We're gonna take it to the end and that's what's up

You are the only one I want to spend my whole life with I know
Anywhere you are, that's where I will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl
I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl
My love

OH YA anyway this song can be found in my MIXPOD

HEAR IT!!

ITS NICE :)

Bye ;)

2010-03-02T02:18:00.000-08:00

Sorry to my GIRLFRIENDS (for making you all worry) :)

I am okay now ( i guess) :)

Today was terrible!!!

Dun wan to say more...

Okay here's a song that i suddenly like back :)

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

The video was super sad :'(
make me feel more depressed after seeing it haiz :(

Bye bye :(

:D

2010-02-19T07:20:00.000-08:00

I thot today was the worst day of my life
BUT it was not after all :)

Why i think it was the worst?
Reasons stated below:
1.Bad Hair Day
2.Yvonne tell me she cannot come attend today's party :(
3.Late for school
4.Caught for breaking school rules
5.Never hand in homework
6.Never hand in homework and never own up(risk)
7.Failed Bio Test (not so bad cos always fail)
8.Got English FOCUS -.-
9. Green tea and water and some other stuff spilled all over me ( OVER and OVER again!)
10. Carmen knock until my head
11. Keep on being murderer when playing murderer ( played 4 times 3 times is i murderer )
12. Some Personal Reasons...
13. Amelia couldn't come for the party :(

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA like shit rite my day lol i know -.-

Haha but it became a good day later on :)

Why?
Reasons stated below :
1. Yvonne made it for the party (even though a while only :) )
2. Had FUN during the "party" lol :DDDDD
3. Everybody (i suppose?) helped to clean up after the party :)
4. Enough food for everyone :)
5. Some personal reasons again :)
6. AND THE HAPPIEST THING OF ALL - MY AH MA IS DISCHARGED FROM HOSPITAL :D

Although the reason for changing my day to a happy day is not as much as my "worst day"

BUT IT FEELS MORE TO ME :)

Thanks to everyone who come to the party today :)

By Alphabetical Order:
Alloysius
Candra
Carmen
Donald
Jennis
Justin
Qi Guang
Sean
Wei Lin
Yvonne

and DUH me myself la

i think thats all tell me if i miss anyone out but should be never :)

HAHA OKAY
THATS ALL HAD A REALLY FUN DAY TODAY THANKS GUYS (and girls "guys" in general)
OKAY GTG
MY MOM NAGGING LOL :)

2010-01-25T01:21:00.001-08:00

Nothing Much
Just Did This For The Sake Of Updating :)

2010-01-19T05:55:00.000-08:00

i am tired D:
i thot it would be different
but it seems to be the same D:

FUCK DAY

2009-12-17T06:31:00.000-08:00

Today was a FUCKED up day!
Not the whole day
It is only until i saw my FUCKING mother
Yup i just said it SO WHAT?!
Slap me la (if you noe how to use a com)
FREAK!

So this fuck day thing happens why i reached home about maybe 8?
ya 8 (AT NIGHT)
came home from JB
then the same routine
THAT FUCKING ATTITUDE
but its okay used to it
she COMPLAINED that i didnt pack my room
But i packed it already -.-
Maybe she was PS about that so she found a new topic to quarrel(not new actually)
she said didnt contribute to the house again wateva shit
then say wan kick me out of the house
in my heart i was like
YAY! WHEN WHEN WHEN..................
so excited
cos..................
I FUCKING DUN WANNA SEE HER FACE (simple reason)
I think if i would to go holiday with her alone one day
I WOULD RATHER DIE (with no regrets) :)

Oh ya she also scolded me for the EDU-SAVE thing
HAH!
Please la when the fucking hell did you pass me that form?
ITS LIKE AFTER THE DATE OF SUBMISSION
it means that GUO QI (chinese) liao
Then you blame me with all your fucking crap again
SO YA AGAIN................
SIMPLE AS IT IS
BLAME ME. MY FAULT.

JUST SHUDDUP AND GET OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE LA
U put the F_CK in my life
UNDERSTAND?!
SO JUST GET OUT!
simple as it is :)

2009-12-12T03:59:00.000-08:00

Hi D:
Today is my PATHETIC 15th Birthday D:
FEEL SO OLD :(
not even happy at all

So i shall thanks ALL who wished me
HAHA esp CHERYL
she called me ant 11 plus going 12 and "chat" with me LOL
of cos i wun believe that she called just to chat rite
YUP so it happened she wishes me D:
FEELS SO DEPRESSED
Haha and got two loser wished me unsuccessfully LOL
CARMEN and JENNIS
who call them wan so much pattern la end up their MMS failed LOL
but its oksy maybe not seeing it makes me feel better ? :)

So today morning went to JB at aroung 6 plus 7?
But.............. still jam D:
Went there to "celebrate"
LOL
Shopping and stuff :D
I MADE A NEW SPECTACLLE :D
LIKE FINALLY!
I WAS IN A DILEMMA ACTUALLY THINKING SHOULD I CHOOSE THE ARMANI XCHANGE SPECS OR THE SWATCH ONE(A|X one was black SWATCH one was pink)
ok lol so now.....................................
Guess which one i take????????
If you say anyone of them .....................YOU ARE WRONG LOL
I took another one instead lol it was the same SWATCH pattern but in BLACK LOL so maybe its not entirely wrong............but just half correct LOL

Reason i took the BLACK SWATCH was because i prefer the design of swatch and i suit black more therefore i combined the A|X BLACK and the SWATCH PINK to get SWATCH BLACK lol :D

Just checked the price of the specs with my mom i thot A|X would be more ex in the end is SWATCH that is more ex
also good la haha use all my mom money who call her so idiot
but overall its still cheap la the specs 350RM only
CHEAP RITE :D

Talking about this i remember need to go JB next week again to collect my specs
HAIZ SIAN! D:

You must find me very LAME
BUT THATS ME LAME LIFE, LAME EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE IT AT TIMES TOO :(

Ok went to eat at a restaurant at JB and blew that pathetic small cake i chose D:
They took pictures
i tried to cover and hide my face
VERY EMBARRASSING LA DUH!!!!!!!!!!

Yup after eating left JB reach home aroud 3 plus 4
Wanted to ask CARMEN go play badminton
BUT...........................
I forget i left the racket at CHERYL's HOUSE -.-
SO OF COS didnt go -.-
SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
how pathetic can my life be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK then later CARMEN ask me go the KOREAN CONCERT thing
i dunno wat is that called
then my mom said that it is dangerous and wateva crap she can find to not let me go -.-
PATHETIC(again) RITE!!!!!!!!!!!!
She ask me go with her VIVO later so ask me dun go out
and you think at last got go?
OF COS NO LA or i would be sitting infront of the computer typing this meh -.-

SO SORRY CARMEN D:

see my apology so sincere leh
make it big big leh LOL :D
So now my mom is watching her korean drama and i am staring at the computer screen hoping for something to" POP-UP"

OK for now i have nothing to say BYE D:

Maybe i should but the song/video 15 by Taylor Swift here lol:

Changed Blogskin :) + Pictures

2009-12-08T17:23:00.000-08:00

Helloosssssssssss :)
Carmen asked me to update
so ya UPDATE NOW

I changed my blogskin yesterday
TO THIS

Nice?
Okay i think some(or maybe most) of you will find it rather ugly

I find it too pink too

BUT I LOVE SCRUMP :D

So its okaay :)

Oh This week i did a lot of things and took a lot of pictures

Lazy to upload all so just upload a few

1.Hi-tea @ Equinox Restaurant

Me and Mommy :D

Jie and Mommy :D

Me :D (taken by Jie) ;D

Me, Jie and Mommy :D

2.Wedding Dinner

ME :D

Mommy :D

3."celebrate" Yvonne Birthday DAY

Ok yup i thinner my hair in this picture
Very short rite :(
But still so thick la WTH :@
Taken in my house

4.YESterday :D

Took Picture of my HAIR and some of my piercings
CARMEN says this picture is nice
Thus decided to upload it :D

<-----GOT GHOST :O

Thats ALL :D

Okay so what am i gonna do today?

PACK MY STUDY ROOM -.-

wa lao hate it leh

TSK.

After packing going my ah ma house :D

My life damn boring rite

Yeah la i noe D:

But for now i going use com

Ohya and i like back this song again :)

Figure the song out yourself

Damn easy :D

There's some things we don't talk about

Rather do without

And just hold the smile

Falling in and out of love

Ashamed and proud of

Together all the while

You can never say never

Why we don't know when

Time and time again

Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go[X2]

Picture you're the queen of everything

As far as the eye can seeUnder your command

I will be your guardian

When all is crumbling

Steady your hand

You can never say neve

rWhy we don't know when

Time, time and time again

Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go[X2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again

We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go

Don't let me go[X4]

EASY RITE LLOL :D

Byes :D

LOL, WEIRD, HAPPY DAY :D

2009-11-24T07:12:00.000-08:00

original edited

What is the difference between these two pictures?

Got difference meh? Lol.

Only that the edited one is brighter?

Yup someone edited this picture

cos he think that the original picture can see the "canal"?, then he dun like

then he say will got pervert all those

like lol rite?

haha and the original one better rite

tsk.

Anyway today is a LOL day !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went bugis with my sister to do her threading

then came home to watch vampire diaries :D

DAMN NICE!!!

cam-whored a while

then my sister left for school :(

then..........

played alone lor D:

MSN-ed

still msn-ing lol.

also watching CSI:Miami now

and of cos blogging lol.

OK thats the end

HOPE I CAN GET WELL COMPLETELY SOON

HAVE BEEN SICK FOR DAYS

OR LIKE A WEEK ALREADY!

i need to recover to go holiday:(

pls let me recover D:

anyway leaving SINGAPORE soon

BYE-BYE! :D

Weird?

2009-11-16T02:39:00.000-08:00

Talking about weird i just found out someone(lol) spell weird like this---> WIERD
That makes the word weird really weird lol
LOL i am crazy now, or am i always crazy?
:D
I am in a super good mood today thats what makes it a WEIRD day
Was it because of _____ not _______ me?
Fill in the blanks yourself if you noe (no helping words provided)
LOL
OK so what did i do today?
Hmmmmmmmmmm.............
Today was rather slack in school or should i say everyday also equally slack? :x
After school went bowling with carmen(IDIOT!), qi guang & wei lin
I laughed all the way through (from leaving the school to after leaving the bowling alley)
Dunno why i laughed
Just laughed lor
They all confirm think i crazy one :( LOL :D
AH-HAH
Now comes the idiotic part
i went WCPlaza with the IDIOT! carmen to talk and whateva(after going clementi)
Then she say she go ask her aunty if need to take disc
Then that idiot later tell me that she cannot come down cos her aunty go take disc liao
IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Make me like an idiot!!!
Or am i already an idiot? LOL :D
I told her i am not going to talk to her forever
but do you think it will really happen?
THE ANSWER IS ______________(fill in the blanks yourself IDIOT! carmen)
Ok so like an idiot i went to buy dinner ALONE
Then wait for bus ALONE
And go home ALONE
SO YA I DID EVERYTHING ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!
TSK! TSK! TSK!
Ok so now i reached home and sit down in front my my laptop to write this_____?
Haha its fun (filling in the blanks?)
LOL :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Might be going out to play L4D later
Hope so
Cos i DUN WAN to stay at home LOL
For now THATS IT
BYE!

when will it ever end?

2009-11-15T03:35:00.000-08:00

Carmen asked me to blog
So i blogged
SEE CARMEN!!!!
Tomorrow going eat MAC breakfast with Carmen and Jennis
Yay!
I noe i sound like a pig
In fact i am
Lol.
Nothing much happened today
Went to my ah ma house
Tuitioned
And home
I feel like i am wasting my life away
Sorry for giving bad attitude these few days
Yeah whatever PMS
Like so~
Hope i could complete my homework by tomorrow
And now my mom is nagging at me to ask me to bathe
Like so irritating
So i am going to bathe now
CIAO~

The truth is hurting
But i guess i would just need to accept the facts
You did'nt told me anything about it
I felt like i am being deceived
But maybe thats what i think only
Trying to avoid you now but also not really?
Everything is in a mess now
Who should i believe?
You or them?
Even if i ask you would you tell me the truth?
Hope i could believe in you but seems like i could'nt
Hope you noe that i do not want to talk to you now and that you could NOT talk to me too
Sorry
But i need a break

But i am happy to say i did'nt fall as deep as i did in the past
At least this could cheer me up for now
Talking about cheering me up
You said you could
But i think you just worsened my day

2009-10-21T00:37:00.002-07:00

Thanks EUGENIE aka CUTIE DARL for this :]
it is really sweet
thank you for always being there for me i really appreciate it a lot
thank you for sharing your problems with me too
this lets me know you really treat me as a true friend :)

Now about today,
bad
didnt know why
just bad

Didnt want to say much already cos i dun wan trouble my friends with my problems
as they may be facing problems of their own already

I truly appreciate my friends being there for me but i dun wan to trouble them further
Thanks C,C,E,J,Y

Results for EOYsucks
I failed bio again....
yup again D:
feel like dropping this sub and also hcl
aiya just feel like quitting school la. :(

Dun ask me if i am okay or not
because i dun noe either
sorry

2009-10-20T08:27:00.000-07:00

I thought over a lot of things D:

Some things that i would like to keep it private

Broke Down today

Eugenie and Carmen saw me crying

Its not the first time Eugenie saw me crying so yeah...

Hope Carmen's not shock

Didnt wanted to let her see this at first

Since things cannot go well for me

I sincerely hope it could for her

Byes i wun be sad anymore :) (i hope)
Just Friends :)

2009-10-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

This is the picture i took today when i was bored and before going out
WATCHED SURROGATES TODAY :D
i miss daddy D:

2009-10-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

Today went SCIENCE CENTRE with C,J,Y (by alphabetical order)
nothing much

Told C aabout my wish which is to make my ***** ******r (haha guess lor :D)

So Bored leh PATHETIC or i would not be blogging

Yeah TMR last day of EXAM :D

NOTHING TO WRITE LIAO

-THE END-

i miss daddy

Will things ever be the same?

2009-09-29T04:21:00.000-07:00

I was late for school today
STUPID BUS!!
I wan late together with CARMEN and JENNIS
CHERYL was late too lol
so all of us got pink form
WALAO i this year late damn a lot of times liao la D:
but who cares anyway
HOPE IF WE TAKE BUS TOGETHER TMR AGAIN WE WILL NOT BE LATE!!

School was as usual everything is the same..

Then end of school most of the ppl got oral
So me and CARMEN who dun have oral wait for JENNIS and CHERYL so good rite :D
At first i was doing my homework
after that CARMEN and i played taptap and air hockey while waiting so fun+funny
When they finished oral we went to WCPlaza (as usual as there was no where to go)
Ate from muffins scones and sushi drank bubble tea :D
Gossiped :O
Then saw a 40 plus guy(i think) webcaming with a young girl (20plus?(
in terms the girl could not see him but he could see the girl
YUCKS SICK HE LOOK LIKE THE CLEMENTI PERVERT LOL
then i did things to make CARMEN and CHERYL irritated dunno JENNIS got irritated or not LOL

OK afterwards JENNIS and i go collect disc with CARMEN
Then we 51-ed home :D

-END-

Pictures :D

2009-09-27T07:09:00.000-07:00

Today was FUN :D

Went to church in the morning as usual
Then slacked at home alone until time to go tuition :D
When i am slacking at home, i cam-whored a while :P
Here are the pictures :D (sorry la i bored mah D:)

i noe i look retarded but i dun really care :P

my new bag cam-whored too :DDDD

Its not nice in picture D:
but dun care i like can liao:D
YVONNE say she cant stand my bag but she still keep taking it -.-
nvm about that

Tuition with YVONNE WIU WIU XDDDDDDDDDDD
CRAPPED a lot during tuition
Then after tuition she went to her ah ma house to eat while i wait at her ah ma house downstairs
she said i waited for her about an hour but dun feel like one hour like 5 mins only as i was doing something :D

When waiting for bus YVONNE told me about somebody write about me in her blog she ask me to read guess what i told her : "For what? Even if i read liao what can i do? And if we got back together you think it will be the same meh , she also got her own friends liao."
So i read her blog liao wat can i say i am not sure if she is talking about me or not la
but there is some thigs that i still need to clarify IF ITS ABOUT ME LA

1. i didnt say i was angry with you because of the CCA thingy i didnt even care actually
2.and true enough i did treat you as a true friend
3.the real reason for me not talking to you was because of your attitude which i told you to change before
4.i never say you were in fault
5.i never say you need to apologise
6.i told J(you should noe who) some things which i dunno if she got tell you or not but it isnt anything BAD
7. i am not angry with you neither do i hate you
8.You got your own friends liao i dun wan IF WE get back together either one of us will be pangseh
9.i dun wan break your friendship with your current friends
10.i dun wan some ppl around me to be sad becos of this

I said some things to YVONNE too as i say it i felt bad towards YVONNE dunno why? D:

went to WCPlaza i became VERY crazy there i was a little crazy in tuition liao :D
ate sushi for dinner, drink bubble tea and do physics(i mean she do cos i finish liao :D )
so i just sat down there and irritate her so fun lol :D
then i started taking pictures again not zhi lian la haha
ok see this :D

Laugh all you want la lol but i dun care :P
This was when i am Primary 4 or 5 cute rite lol ok just joking :D
haha i didnt noe why i took this just for fun?
whateva LOL :D

ok so i told YVONNE i wan go cos i dun wan sit there then went to comic connection but on the way there took picture again :D
this is YVONNE help me take one :D

LOOK :D

i am super pink today :D
haha dun bother about my fat legs D:

HAHA then it was my turn to take her photo
LOOK :D

This is YVONNE haha :D

OK i noe my photography skills sucks :P
sorry la lol :D

Ok so i went to see the phone i wanted which is W995 (red one)
but YVONNE say black nice cos she is a black lover -.-
but i still wan red i dun care! :D

OK i think thats all cos we went home later ya i told her not to miss me she told me not to miss her too but i noe she CONFIRM WILL MISS ME one :DDDDDDDDDD
i noe her too well one day dun see me will die :D
cos i have been seeing her everyday from monday to sunday and i mean it everyday leh every week somemore la SIAN lol just joking la :DDDDDDDDDDDD

OK then when i go home i eat dinner then when out walk walk with my mom and sister
Came home then bathe and now blogging :D
so ya end of story

CIAO~ :D